give me a hug.

*Friday, March 31, 2006

THIS is not good.

the status is in a relationship and i'm inexplicably crushed : (

goodbye dear.

but THIS is

salamat gaye, ceej, icy, luis, jai, aj, kaye, miggy, jb, claro, alecco para sa sulit na first of summer.

happy birthday ange
happy birthday freenan

upuan!

*Wednesday, March 29, 2006

new layout

at pagmumunimuni

who wants to go to iloveyou with me?
maitim talaga ako nigga
who i am hates who i've been - relient K
~~ako pinakaluge ngayon sa amin. sorry :(~~
di ko alam ano class kukunin ko this summer kasi di ko naman alam san ako pupulutin
never ko pa nakita si jo-e kumuha ng diploma
~~2 digits yung score na kailangan ko para maka~~tres sa chem. kaya. pero para san pa?
san ako pupulutin?
gusto ko ang college of engineering. ngayon ko lang narealize.
tapos na ang second sem. di parin binabalik ni wyndsor camera ko.
kung naging kami kaya nagsipag ako?
ewwww
hindi pa naman ako demonyo
nag box-o-rice kami ni kaye kahapon. bonding. belat mo!
~~nasasanay~~ marunong na ko mag-german
love ko si pau. oha.
no. hindi ko gusto si breechy. naguluhan ka dun noh? ~~pilosopo.~~
i want a cheap monday tanktop.
and these for my so far away birthday
yes i know i'm crazy
~~manigas ka jan.~~ sorry pms. ~~jan ka nalang.~~
~~sinong drunkard? ako? ah sige inom kalang jan ha. haha. bhe.~~
i should care more about certain things.
i should care less about certain things. ~~you.~~
~~anlabo natin. medyo lang. anlabo rin ng nararamdaman ko para sayo ngayon.~~
nakakainis yung sandali may gagawin lang ako importante tapos di ka manlang maka-oo wala na agad
miss ko na ang mga barkada
excited na ko bukas
super rave mode ako sa friday. tiesto man o hed kandi. i will dance and no one can stop me!
i will dance :)
baliw yung nanggugulo kila ayisse at zay
~~ang ganda ni dindin. bagong gf ni rocky. ang ganda niya. ogle ogle ogle.~~it's anna. can't say the same.
~~ayusin mo PLEASE~~ thank you :)
~~monthsary ko dapat ngayon. 29~~
wala paring cellphone si name. wala parin akong relo.
naging kami na at lahat di parin tayo naguusap.
~~nagtatampo na ko. mas ok pa yung dati. nung wala pa.~~
can i climb up the ladder?
~~hawakan mo ng maayos. baka lumipad eh.~~
1 month ~~: 2 years~~
tempted
~~walang kwenta~~
congrats sa lahat ng excempted sa kahit anong finals. kahit yung isang mayabang diyan. lol. hug :)
mwah

Am I loud and clear, or am I breaking up?
Am I still your charm, or am I just bad luck?
Are we getting closer, or are we just getting more lost?

I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's ~~compare scars~~,I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand

I've been here so long, I think that it's time to move
The winter's so cold, summer's over too soon
Let's pack our bags and settle down where palm trees grow

I've got some friends, some that I hardly know
But we've had some times, I wouldn't trade for the world
We chase these days down with talks of the places that we will go

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand....until you hold my hand

chem na. sana makaaral pa.
crying. i'm sorry.
i'm sorry

*Sunday, March 26, 2006

maligayang unang kabuwanan

technically, 28 days palang daw. nagbibilang. palusot ;)

short ng one hour yung stay. di parin na-beat yung 20-hours record. haha.

here's the story.

i got crazier than usual this weekend. so here it is.

the list (non-obsession celebrity edition)

jimmy fallon
he's so adorable. he's so annoying. he's so funny. he's a hunkhunka burnin love.

tracy morgan
also from snl. he reminds me of jo-e. 'nuff said.

james franco
he is my tristan. oh my prince. haha.

clive owen
sin city got me burning. haha. closer sold it. yis. that accent made me go weeeeeeeeeeeeee.

fred savage
i've ogled him eversince the wonder years. and i wasn't even born yet. haha. those eyes are so tantalizing. meltdown.

daniel craig
my favorite 007. i have a penchant for old english men. haha. they're refined.

chris brown
i love him because he looks like someone we know *biggrin&awink* killer smile beybeh. haha. seryoso. tignan niyo. kamukha niya talaga. pati yung malalim na area between his eyes. oh diba? i have my very own chris brown. his voice it nice too. but his dance is weird. haha. question: ano ba yung ginagawa mo dun sa garahe? bat ka nagsquasquat?dragon ball z ba yun?

this is the non-obsession celebrity edition. i can get more obsessed? hahaha. yes. woah. jake, orlando, colin and russel aren't even there yet.

and again.

happy first monthsary.

thanks for coming ;)

*Thursday, March 23, 2006

self deprecation

i seriously think the whole gay thing affects the promiscuous appeal and impression. i can't believe i said that again. after a very long time. promiscuous. hindi talaga siya maganda. hindi lang sa connotation naglilie yung negativity. kadire. cheers to self-deprecation.

~~gay~~. i promise. madali lang naman akong kausapin eh. mahirap nga lang matauhan. all that was needed to be done was to say something. all that had to be said was ang weirdo ng feeling. all that had to be shown was that it would be better this way. kung ikatutuwa bat hindi diba?

naiinis ako sa sarili ko. andito nanaman ako sa stage na nagpapakaungas ako. i mean ang dali kong maagitate and, in turn, madali rin akong mangagitate. nagiging macrobitch ako. rarr. mali yung pagattack ko sa mga situwasyon. Ssss. luis. tama na muna yang lower life forms. baka manuklaw yan eh. grrrrr. yes, i make a lot of sounds. lalo na lately. diba? at bat mo naman kasi ako minomock? eh sa mahilig akong mag animal noises eh. make your own. haha. di ako galit. i find you annoyingly cute. anyway. raised exponentially yung negativity. i know it's because i'm faltering. acad-wise lalo. and naiinsecure ako sa katawan ko kasi summer na. nagvanish na completely yung abs at triceps. iniisip ko kung naiinis parin ba ako sa oras niya. ayoko na mainis. yun nga actually, hindi na ko inis. kahit saang angulo ko tignan. let's say priorities. taas parin eh. so ayos parin. ayos talaga kasi may nalalaman pang white or red wine :)

kailangan ko nga pala mag swimsuit shopping. pag may nakita naman kayong magandang bandeau + boy shorts pasabi sakin. ayos kung white para halatang halata yung pagitim mo. ang sarap. nararamdaman ko na yung coke sa balat ko. sa first week of april ako excited. sorry. utak ko utak sandy parin eh. nagbabago naman gradually for you.

if the post was too tutu for a tutu. then it must really be too much. with all the redundance. kaya sort of binura ko na muna. bakla na yung humirit eh.

tama siya. how much more pag nakilala mo na siya? mas sick ka pa siyempre kaysa sakin ngayon. pero yun lang talaga sakin. i still feel sick. best thing to do is maging sensitive pagdating sa iba. guilty rin ako diyan. so sorry. ibang level na yung needed na mouth shut.

so yan. sanay na kayo na gawain kong asarin at ilaglag sarili ko. wag nalang sana tularan. salamat.

my biggest frustration as of the moment: taeng isang daan yan. cow poop!

mga kasiyahan sa ngayon:

happy birthday Ceej :)

happy birthday Ratet :)

happy birthday Mama :)

*Friday, March 17, 2006

mi ultimo adios

Natuyo ang luhang sa mata'y nunukal,
taas na ang noo't walang kapootan,
walang bakas kunot ng kapighatian
gabahid man dungis niyong kahihiyan.
~jose rizal

no. this is not my proclamation of a hiatus. i am not planning to kill myself either. but hey. yey for sui tendencies. haha. not funny. the apocalypse is coming and its name is chem16. haha. exagg naman sandy. many have ventured and have come back alive. oo rah for chem majors. haha. come on. this is me were talking about. you very well know tomorrow's gonna be a big day. 3rd long exam. need to pass chem16. or else. big day tomorrow for others as well. good luck to all who are gonna take the physics exam 7 hours before the chem exam. what a day it'll be for you. bow down :)

we went to icy's today. ceej,master,kaye,icy and i. we were gonna have a group review. we all know how that went. haha. the myth of the group review. i had fun anyway. didn't we all? haha. raging bitch. fudge. whatthefuck na hirit yan. nice tolibas. halimaw ka talaga.

on a lighter note. we played frisbee yesterday. the boys got to experience the real game. ulimate frisbee. gah. i miss it. i didn't play. asa pa. sheer pink off the shoulder top and flipflops. haha. i still suck. my aim's still really bad and my catching skills are worse. i'm too duling to function. i held the disc less than ten times. you guys are so madaya. haha. alam ko naman kung bakit. i accept. haha. the disc hit me twice. dead on. on the head and on my ankle. daming near miss. the frisbee loves me.

the ateneo kada, ac kada and i were supposed to go to meatshop today. asa chong. i have to prepare for the coming of the end. haha. so kash rescheduled it to the 24th. umm. lalo pang asa. the 24th is. watchasay? fully booked. kash naman. debut ni diane mo yun diba? then there are exams the next week. mom's birthday. and the big basketball. plus we're turning a month old. yey. love love lovee. the meet the rents is scaring the shit out of me though. unplanned is always so much better. haha. love love lovee. thanks for the time. and everything else :)

any ideas? contact me. lol. or him. para masaya.

so. ano? tara na?

SUGOD!

*Tuesday, March 14, 2006

bow worthy

pag may amats ka nga naman. para kang si the Flash :)

nahwatyourethinking. lol. pero foot. i realized na mahal na mahal ko barkada ko. SOLID. astig. dami ko talaga natututunan pag kasama ko si master. bow worthy. nice camille. bow worthy din ;)

i'm sooooooorry. so sorry. i'll kiss the booboo nalang. and tititigan ko yung isa pa. baka it'll eventually grow legs and walk away. sorry talaga. test amp. gah. there's no such thing as a small circle. i'm soooorry :(

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happy birthday frauey & janis :)
happy birthday monmon on the 16th <3

last hirit. tighten imaginary leash? alright :)

*Sunday, March 12, 2006

milestones

first time ko magyosi dito sa bahay sa makati. look. its emily the strange.

my new ashbin. haha. giveaway sa debut ni mavic. perfect. a tribute to mavic :)

at dahil ninakaw ko lang ang cellphone ni marti na dati'y cellphone ko. tutulungan ko siyang ipagmalaki ang katawan niya. lol.

my brother. the machoboy :)

plug: first time that i drove the whole family home. yes. all five of us are still alive. hoorah :)

*Saturday, March 11, 2006

hey hey hey. that ain't right.

this ain't right. don't make your friends reminisce when they're soo far away from their memories. thanks for making me cry meia. thanks for travelling all this way just to show me your creations. i miss you. i miss all of you :)

2006-48668 CAMBRI, CELSO JR TANAQUIN LOS BANOS BS FOOD TECHNOLOGY
this ain't right because he should be in diliman. with us. who want him. lol:)

: int time=0;/*morning na eh*/
if(sandy==online && sheen==online && aj==asleep)
sheen==morning_buddy;

else
aj==morning_buddy;

Sandy: good luck sa inyong lahat sa mga mpoy niyo :)
Patrick: bat ngyn lang nya nasumbat syo yan?
Sandy: hindi naman. lagi namin napaguusapan. pero exagg yung kagabi. parang inuna ko pa yung geog sa math.
Sandy: eto yung tunay na. nasabi ko talaga sa sarili ko "why am i here? what am i doing?"
Patrick: ok lang yan
Patrick: he cares :)
Sandy: i know. pero ang pangit. mas may care pa siya kaysa sakin...para akong batang kailangan pa bantayan pagsabihan at alagaan.
Patrick: ahahah
Patrick: bakit, ndi ba?
Sandy: leche. ayoko na ng ganun. gusto ko inaalagaan ko rin siya. pantay dapat.
Patrick: e d alagaan mo rin.

this ain't right because sandy cheeks and patrick star are speaking in tagalog. lol. but seriously this ain't right. i have absolutely no reason to screw up. i have no reason not to go to class. you're right. why don't i come to school early? well. i didn't have you then. but that is not at all acceptable. you're so right to feel the way you do about my standing. all of you are. i'm so unreasonable. i'm less than a bum. foot. i'm so sorry for bringing you more frustrations than you already have. i may be less than a bum but i'm ~~more than just a~~ your girl. and for that i will be a better person on my own for you. i will care for and about me as you do or even more. i will care for you as you care for me or even more. i will kiss the pain away. i will take the scars and make you forget. i will cover your ears when i say something bad. i will suck the pride in and listen. i will cover your eyes and kiss them when they're tired. i will hug you when you're aching and tell you how good you still look even when you feel so sick. i will let you fish freely. i will tell you the truth. i will try not to expect. i will be there for you. i won't do what they did. i will see what you're trying to show me. i love that you care. i don't want you to stop. diretso. kung ano ginagawa mo para sakin gagawin ko rin para sayo. gusto ko mabasa mo toh habang nagaaral ako ng math.no lol.seryoso.kaya natin toh.

*Wednesday, March 08, 2006

shit.

"Ladies, I should mention that most bad things you have heard about frat boys are true. I pray every day that all of my children will be boys. It is just too damned hard to be a girl. Guys care even less about you than you think."

see? told you soo.

tama na. i'm facing reality. i love you both.
love love love boyf. love love beefy.

*Tuesday, March 07, 2006

killer smile

well well well. we meet again. i thought i escaped your clutches. you held me for four years. i almost died. but i think i wanted to die in your arms anyway. so i guess that's ok. but still. why are you here? why did you follow me when you knew that i didn't want to cry anymore? don't make excuses. i don't care if you came in a different form. i don't care if you're more caring or more sensual. you're still gonna hurt me. you know it. i know it. fuck you saddist or masochist or whatever you are. but i can't deny that i missed you. i missed the near death experiences. i missed the adrenaline rush. gah. your like chocolate. you're my chocolate death. no. you're my chocolate gudang death. i think you're far more deadly now. you've come with a better package. argh. it's happening. dicks before chicks. what happened to prioritizing? and now they tell me? you've learned how to love. you now give your all. so contradictory to what you've always shown me. gah. i'm taunted by ross. like joey. i have to nod to that. you see? so fast. so fast. i'm already crying. you're still fast. you still got it. damn those teeth. they shine. those eyes. they sparkle. damn you. i love you.

freaky me. i read his testimonials a while ago. and now i feel this. it's not mutual anymore. i don't deserve you. you whom they say is. malakas magfish. totoong tao. magaling magbasketball. athletic. dota god. econ master. physics dude. nakagraduate nang di nagaaral. frank. passive aggressive. mabait. gentleman. totoo magmahal. gago. ahas. deep deep thinker. contemplative. sentimental. angas. tigas. chickboy. close up smile. pogi. malambing. boy pakisama. poetic. romantic. seryoso. makulit. doormat. maCR. mas vain pa sa babae. you're the extremes. you're everything. affiliated pa ngayon. i wish i could see everything they're saying. i love every bit of it. of you. maganda. masama. lahat. damn you. i love you.

what goes up must come down. but we can defy that naman diba? we did once. we can do it again :)

sorry. malabo ako. kinakausap ko sarili ko.

*Saturday, March 04, 2006

happy birthday isobel :)

weeee! you're 19 and i love you dear!

fashizzle! it's march! it's hot! it's summertime! panahon nanaman ng kasabawan! let's put our beer goggles on and have some summer soup! tara na sa beach :) i miss my water babies! mfy! i miss the tag house! daan tayong tagaytay for some sheperds' pie from Bag o' Beans! jellO shots! jellO shots! jellO shots! tan lines woohoo! six packs woopwoop! maligo tayo sa coke at magpakaitim! yis!

badtrip nga lang may pasok this april. oh well :)

*Thursday, March 02, 2006

so we all know about this:

january 22
pacman's victory
after 13 days
february4
ultra stampede
after 13 days
february 17
southern leyte landslide
after 13 days
march 2
???
please pray

so people prayed? good.
we should all do this together all the time.
not just in times when we're in need of His help.
and not during times we're afraid of superstitions and crazy coincidences.

today wasn't that bad. some not so good things and one very bad thought.
good thing di ako nakaencounter ng bad entities. db. haha. our math teacher walked out on us. she got paysed because we were inconsiderate, i guess. a cellphone rang in class. she said some stuff. she drew the graphs of tan,cot,csc,sec on the board ,threw the chalk and left. And because of that i read leithold. sa mcdo. with ceej and luis. yis :) then, spent happy time. nagpakalulon nanaman kami sa bisyo. each other,bs and drews.weird namin. haha. mas ok maging freeloader kaysa maging mukhang pera. we're priceless. awww. i love it when we can hear each other breathing. i love how we can hangout til curfew and still manage to talk on the phone til the weeee hours. then sabay makakatulog sa phone. haha. anlabo. basta. weeeeeeee :)

*Wednesday, March 01, 2006

why?

i'm sorry i'm questioning You but why him of all people? why him?
why do You let bad things happen to good people?
he might not be with You because of what happened.
why would You not want him to be with You? why? why? why?
he loves You so much. he loves You. why him? :'(

oh. yeah. umm. i love taylor hicks. wurd. but i doo.