give me a hug.

*Sunday, September 25, 2005

Advenchur toh!!!

i don't want this entry to be a bad reminder
so i'm just saying
i'm fine
it was fun
i'm just unfulfilled
coz hindy wasn't there
but i was
i love myself
but i love hindy more : )
i'm glad i met essy,franny,guchie,sia and all 'em people
it's never saddening to meet new people
for me that is
i'm disappointed in myself for being so manhid
to things that should hit me hard
or just plain hit me
damn
branded na ang baga ko
pati yata sikmura ko
drunk
wasted
and high
that's what i wanna be
effin all who think i'm bimboish
or lande coz of this
tamad tanggap ko pa
lalo na walang pake sa uhmph
ako talaga yun
happy-go-lucky days are over
i'm not lucky anymore
tapos.
glad i spent this with ceej
and jenna for a while : )

hugs&kisses,

hanap kiliti

*Saturday, September 24, 2005

maigad
pano na toh?
food poisoning yata
argh
nasusuka ako
haha
naku sandy...thanks for sharing...

*Thursday, September 22, 2005

full frontal or stab the back?

she who must not be named?
puhlease
like you don't say it often
in your head
in your eyes
in your actions
actions speak
louder than words
she has been named
who's to say she "must not"?
shallow
(to the nth degree)
self-righteous
fc
right back at u
look who's talking
hypocrite
armageddon.

hugs&kisses,

hypocrite u

what's in a name?

all that u are?

pathetic.

*to think na pinakilala mo pa ex mo.

effuhcee!

*Wednesday, September 21, 2005

drinking one-day-old c2 apple with ice.
disgusting?
quenched my thirst.
'nuff said.
blah.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FRET!

I LOVE YOU LITTLE SISTER <3

hugs&kisses,

ate nana

*Tuesday, September 20, 2005

hope you know

i miss you miggy :(

hugs&kisses,

Maud

Today and you

In
the darkness
i feel alive
i see my happiness
my happiness alone
sight restrained from veracity
my soul wide open
my eyes wide shut
my being in blissful turpitude

In
the light
i feel nothing but pain
there is solitude in gathering
there is agony in faintness
i am a wanderer forlorn
six strained instead of two
nothing gained
all is lost

I chose to live in the light
today
I might pack my bags tomorrow

You don't understand
You can't and you won't
For it was not you who filled this void
My words are just words
genuine cotton
words shall remain words
for the heart hearts he
not thee

ovvio ressa
per ill tuo fratello
io fessato con
con ill tuo fratello
mi abitare oscurito
ritorante estasi
HELP ME

Blind me beholder
Name me Felicity

hugs&kisses,

Feece

*Monday, September 19, 2005

guide me

love used to describe a very strong, positive feeling towards somebody or something. It is used especially to talk about strong romantic or sexual feelings between people; liking used to talk about positive feelings towards somebody or something. These feelings are not as strong as those suggested by love; affection used to describe warm friendly caring feelings between people. It can also be used to talk about a liking for something such as a place; fondness used in a similar way to affection to talk about feelings between people. It can also be used to describe a strong liking or preference for something; passion used to describe an exceptionally intense love for somebody, usually of a strong sexual nature. It can also be used to refer to a strong liking or enthusiasm for something, sometimes of an excessive nature; infatuation used to describe an intense but short-lived and often unrealistic love for somebody, usually of a romantic or sexual nature; crush used to describe somebody’s strong feeling of attraction towards a person with whom he or she is not having a relationship. It is used especially to talk about teenagers and young people.

quickie log

by my lonesome...

@ sc...

hugs&kisses,

Invisible Mode

*Sunday, September 18, 2005

still there?? GO AWAY

i can't deny that i am still miffed.
what's the point in being myself if i can't be true?
we, both you and i, can't do anything
if in this foreign land
it is only they whom i could lean on
and it is only he whom i could trust.
blame me not
for you are the very reason
i was the way i was.
you are the very reason
my balloon has flown away.
i am the way i am
because i chose to be.
you are my very reason no longer.
you are nothing.

somewhere,my balloon still is.
hopefully,'tis not yet popped.
'elst,death be upon you
heartless hooligan.

hugs&kisses,

Emptiness

hello again??

while googling my name...
I found my old blog....
hahaha: )

katawatawa talaga ako nun...

http://happydyna.blogspot.com

super lala!

then there's my 11th birthday (paulo?)

http://community.webshots.com/album/451369664TjtMIZ

super dooper lala!

hugs&kisses,

San Cai

I can't believe we did that!

wow...reminiscing weekend pala...the friendship elf is watching over me : )
yesterday it was amil's...now it's tina & tessa's... *PICTURES

parang naging maksci reunion,but not that much...
there were

maksci people
maksci/up people
Bayaran
up people
umak people
a whole lot of musikeros

parang band fest...fun : )

ofcourse...we were there...the original 3...tres guapas...R.O.S.

hahahaha! SUPER LAFFTREEP : )

reminiscing our kiddie days...ang lakas pala ng tama namin nun...kaya ganito ang kinalabasan...a bunch of kickass freaks...one of my faves: invisible bike : )

and then there were the highschool days...II-Mendel..the best...hate fest...stirrero...my Roman days...grrr...Naalala mo si...?San na kaya yun?(criticize) type of conversation...then ends with

"I CAN'T BELIEVE WE DID THAT!"

15 years...now that's strong...wow : )

FBLC days
ROSS (Spice Girls)
Fun Club
Kim & Tanya Days (bumabalik-balik minsan)
MakSci
T.N.I.C.B.
Cannabis
banda days
buhay isko
kay rami gyud!

Sayang...ako lang napahiwalay...they're both in UP-LB...life would be so much better if we we're all together...again...kissing the down days goodbye...the best of bestfriends i could imagine..we don't "hang" together 24/7...have our own unique lives...not side kicks...but are still one : )

(naiinis ako sa pagsusulat ko...putol putol...dammit...just to avoid ehem ehem : p )

musikera,bolera,indakera...we all are.

tapos there's harry and i...hahahahaha! : )

I LOVE YOU GUYS!

the masters of inside jokes : p

Happy Birthday -ber babies!!!

hugs&kisses,

Dyna

*Saturday, September 17, 2005

just got home...

from amil's debut...
was with my csa grade school barkada...
damn we're strong! : )
iniisip namin kung anong pangalan ng kada namin...
we remembered that we named 'us' before...back in grade school...but we can't remember what name it was...haha : )
vidz's audio vis presentation rocked!...though,some parts made me cry :' (
i love my friends talaga...true friends...true love : )

hugs&kisses,

Liza

*Friday, September 16, 2005

::THIS SITE IS UNDER CONSTRUCTION::

~~I'M TRANSFERRING MY POSTS FROM MY FRIENDSTER BLOG~~

THIS SITE WILL FOREVER BE UNDER CONSTRUCTION : )

Friendster:

hello to all the citizens of Melchor Hall!

Hello IEClub! : )

hello Beta Epsilon

(hahaha..may nalalaman pang special mention!and so? pake mo??eww noh?)

PAX!!! : )

hugs&kisses,

Sandina

walang tulugan...
pag ako na-ngayat...
may sisihan?

gawd...
i'm picking on it again...
it'll never heal if i keep doing this...

patigasan na toh!
bwahahahaha!!!

no sleep on a jam-packed day

8.30 env sci 1 .villadolid
11.30 math17 .math bldg.
1.00 kas1 .AS
2.00 interview ni miggoy .melchor
4.00 jogadores .sunken
5.00 deadline ng LE
6.00 debut ni angel .makati shang
++ vice night .edward's

di ko naman pwede gawin lahat kasi may over-lapping...
kung pwede lang akong hatiin...
of all the people...ako pa...
pag hinati ako...wala nang matitira...

hugs&kisses,

still me

Inter-twined thoughts.Reading between the lines.

i'm going to try the rant-style of writing...

wala akong class ng 10-11:30 pag thursday...pero nagpahatid ako sa UP ng 10am...atleast yun sana yung gusto kong magyari...late akong nagising...9 na yata... syempre naligo pa at kung anoano... nagpagupit ako kagabi..new hairstyle..for a new me?no way...but it is what people usually do to "move on" diba?...like that time when kristia went from super straight to shaggy coz of bajooze...or that time when toni went shaggy rin coz of caste...haha..nakakahalata na ako ng pattern...funny coz shaggy nga ang hair style ko...siguro it's a "move on" kind-of-thing nga...it's saying "i cut you out." or "there's more to it." or better yet "i'm fine. you're not."...napansin ko na bagay na may suot na headband..so nagsuot ako today...why not diba?...function?ummm..make me feel good...masama ba?...so 9:30 na kami nakaalis ng bahay...magkikita dapat kami nila ceej & icy sa iec tambayan tapos mag-casaa...cow poop yung traffic...tapos of all the days...ngayon pa nagpa-vulcanize tatay ko...so syempre nauna nalang sila ceej...torture is a no-no...BH yata kami noh??...sa engg parin ako nagpa-hatid kasi hihiram pa ko ng primer...nakita ko si j3 dun sa tindahan sa harap...umuupo sa sidewalk kahit umuulan..haha..nakakaloko talaga...nakasabay ko rin si mitch...sa kanya nalang ako humiram ng primer...pina-photocopy ko sa baba...nag-hi ako kay rachelle..nasa tambayan sila ni alfred...tapos diretso na kong AS...binigay ko yung primer kay jb..comm3 niya..so "hi sandy!" naman former classmates ko...fast forward to math time...late si rozano,as usual...trippings with j3...lafftreep:)...after math...funny noh?haha...hinatid kami ni miggy sa engg...those 10 minutes touched me profoundly...kahit nag-break na kami...or cool off..ewan..di lang para sa mag-on yan...pag kami lang...nararamdaman ko parin yung care..ibang usapan na pag may ibang tao...sad...so nag engg canteen kami nila ceej...stairs muna syempre...hi si tholits...may kasabay kami nila ceej bumaba kaya isnab muna kila chess...was with ceej,icy & eric nga pala...i'm super thankful kasi they're there...suporta ba...malay mo di naman talaga dapat sila dun diba?..BH talaga yan:)...forward ulit...eng12 namin ni orel...hinatid kami ni jb sa caL...baba muna kami sa stairs ng engg...simpleng smile kay don...tapos...what jb said i will not say...because what jb says is too right and true for you to admit...so eng12..katabi ko si orel..snooze and cooze...100 years of solitude eh...pinicturan namin si orel nang natutulog..forward ulit..balik kaming iec tambayan...sa engg steps nag-hi ulit ako kay rachelle...kakatapos lang ng interview ni camille...isa pang BH yan..kaya importante sakin yan...we talked...felt her pain...just as a friend should...yun nalang...small talk with few clubbers...small="meaningful" talaga minsan...sabay smile...then baba kami nina camille,carlo & migs sa engg caf to eat...iral na naman ang katakawan ng mga payatot..yeah:)...sushi,sandwiches,kornets & c2...nagpakalunod sa c2...forward ulit...uwi na kami...napatigil nga lang sa aces tambayan...hinintay kasi namin si luisa...chatted with gb&jon...usap kami ni julius...kasi may rason talaga...kamustahan dahil kailangan...stare stair...wow ah...forward ulit...nag umbrella contest kami ni camille sa lobby...ang lala..tapos hinatid kami nila ash sa vinzon's...na-igno kami ni camille sa auto...haha...forward...ang lakas ng ulan!!!naligo ako...sobra...wet and wild...pants hanggang buttocks...pwede ba yun?oo pwede yun!!!mrt kami nila carlo at luisa...syempre pinagusapan namin lalaki..duh?kasama mo ba naman si dudubebe...aces is a frat na raw sabi ni luisa...haha...nagsumbong ng kung anuano...mapagsabihan nga yung mga yun...kain lang pala kayo nang kain ah...haha:)...so we parted ways...hala uwi na...pagdating dito samin...kasabay ko pala si rocky maglakad...di man lang umiimik...sinisi pa ko...the love is still there...everyone knows that...pero saka na..."i wanna let all this pass before we get back together...again"...kasi naman...kung anoanong iniisip niyo...takte...mind your own business kasi...wala kayong alam!!di niyo alam kung bakit ganito ako!...rocky's time isn't finished...so yun...the usual on-line...i've come to a conclusion that ym is destroying life...haha...puksain daw sabi ni ownee...cow poop yung isa kong naka-chat...yun ang talagang dapat sabihan ng "mind your own business!"...haha:)...cow poops...nahalata niyo ba na kay rachelle lang ako talagang nag-hi today?...yes...i deliberately wrote stair scenarios here...intertwined with everything...they're actually the important parts...how i'm following the "do

what makes you happy and stand by it."...i'm doing my part...so do yours...accept it...the interaction will still be there...you'll still see me...and i'll be happy doing what i'm doing...no one's asking you to look anyway...don't expect much coz i don't give that much of a damn to give you full satisfaction...in the alphabet...I comes before U...haha:)

ang hirap pala nitong style na toh...super haba...pudpud na pudpud na ang (.) tab ko...hehe...walang makaintindi...

try mo ha...please:)

*that's just me and mike nung intensity '95 (eww?)

hugs&kisses,

Wildfiregawdess

*Tuesday, September 13, 2005

Something from the past (re-post)

i'm reposting this as a reminder : (

The Wisdom of Socrates

Jan9: sana may matamaan sa taray look natin noh?

Acela: ewan ko lang sayo ah...

Ross: Oh no!!

Sandy: Jan9 is it working?

In ancient Greece (469 - 399 BC), Socrates was widely lauded for his wisdom.
One day the great philosopher came upon an acquaintance who ran up to him excitedly and said, "Socrates, do you know what I just heard about one of your students?"

"Wait a moment," Socrates replied. "Before you tell me I'd like you to pass a little test. It's called the Test of Three."

"Three?"

"That's right," Socrates continued "Before you talk to me about my student let's take a moment to test what you're going to say. The first test is Truth Have you made absolutely sure that what you are about to tell me is true?"

"No," the man said, "actually I just heard about it."

"All right," said Socrates. "So you don't really know if it's true or not. Now let's try the second test, the test of Goodness. Is what you are about to tell me about my student something good?"

"No, on the contrary..."

"So," Socrates continued, "you want to tell me something bad about him even though you're not certain it's true?"

The man shrugged, a little embarrassed.

Socrates continued. "You may still pass though, because there is a third test - the filter of Usefulness. Is what you want to tell me about my student going to be useful to me?"

"No, not really."

"Well," concluded Socrates, "if what you want to tell me is neither True nor Good nor even Useful, why tell it to me at all?"

The man was defeated and left, ashamed.

This is the reason Socrates was a great philosopher and held in such high esteem.

HaPPineSS is a peRfumE yöU caNNöt pöuR ön ötHeRs wiThöuT sPiLLing söMe ön yöuRseLf.

hugs&kisses,

Was Mistaken

They are REAL friends

I thank God for people like Ross who'll tell you "Be yourself-er."

I thank God for people like Camille who'll tell you "You only have to please Him."

I thank God for people like Gianna who'll tell you "Do what makes you happy and stand by it"

I thank God for people like Ruth who'll tell you "Your a strong girl. DON'T WORRY."

I thank God for people like J3 who'll tell you "Listen."

I thank God for people like Jb who'll tell you "Keep the smile. Cut the JUNK!"

But most of all, I thank God for people like Teem who'll tell you "Manigas sila!"

Hahahahahaha :)

marami pa yan...kilala niyo na mga sarili niyo...

I thank God for REAL friends.

the bunch formerly known as BH...now this is what i call a lafftreep : )

I love you guys!

You know who you REALly are : )

Go BH! yey!

hugs&kisses,

Sandiness : )

*Monday, September 12, 2005

I wanna be Myself-er

What a fine day today was.

I won’t tire myself, typing the useless points of my day. Instead, I will go straight to the f*cking point; this being the cow poop in my so-called life.

I’ve always known that people often get annoyed with me. Be it my perkiness, elitism or arrogance, I always find a way to tick people off. I admit and accept all this. And in all fairness, I did forewarn you.

“I can be quiet a pain, so don’t push me.”

It was only today that someone actually stood up to me and said, “maraming galit sayo.”
This certain someone isn’t one of these “marami”. Thank God. Though he often criticizes me, I truly appreciate his frankness and honesty; for only a true friend would tell you “you have gum on your hair.” He adds to his testimony, perhaps to make me feel better, that it doesn’t matter what people say. “Mabait ka naman sakin eh.” But despite this, it still hurt; crushed my heart, in the non-romantic sense; for I knew it all this time, but it wasn’t verified, until now.

I know who these people are. I somewhat know why they feel that way about me. I have this bad habit of putting myself above others, even though I’m in no place to do so. I judge just because; finding no fault in the one I judge. I classify, categorize and stereotype. There’s “cool” and “jologs”. I’m a conversationalist but often times I get too loud, creating noise instead of sound. True, that I am affectionate, but clingy and fc is what I become. I dress up, an un-UPian trait, too racy at times. I have nothing to show and nothing to hide; no tits or tush. So there!

I can be hypocritical, saying things but doing the opposite. Playing coy in the positive sense but living it the negative way. But I don’t wanna talk in riddles anymore. “Ayaw kunwari pero ang landi naman.” That’s what you whisper when I’m around. I know.

While reading this you say, “so inamin mo rin?”

I’d like to say “ I don’t give a damn!” , but I won’t because I do! I care what people think. What do you expect? I’m a people-person dammit!

“Eh sira ka pala eh! Dineny ko ba para sabihin mong inaamin ko na?? Takte!Ano bang pake mo?! Oo na! Malakas akong manlait. Ang kapal ng mukha ko! Alam kong wala akong karapatan manglait kasi wala naman akong ipagmamalaki diba? Inaamin ko. Tinatanggap ko. Sige na! Tama ka na para sumaya ka na! Tapos! Atleast di ako duwag kagaya mo!“

*Ugh..I’d like to point out that this is a blog. I am free to express my feelings and say whatever I want!

Sorry. Badtrip to the positive infinity : (

*Thank you Ross and Oni for always being there for me. Especially when I’m so down and fed up with everything. Thank you for listening to my sob stories, cheesy heart situations and corn poop non-sense. I wish I could follow your advice. In ADMU I can be myself-er.

*Thanks Chet. nuff’ said.

hugs&kisses,

I don't know anymore

*Saturday, September 10, 2005

"After you admitted defeat"

i made you smile.
you made me sad.
i did not frown.
i simply felt this inexplicable heaviness in my heart.
and for days passed, this jarring emotion stays.
is this love? i doubt it. no. i don't. i say a solid NO. + ewwwww.
is this infatuation? maybe.
maybe. how i hate "maybe".
i abhor this sad state of ambiguity.
is this "the game"? that. i fear the most.
i played you. and now. you're playing me.
it must be that. yes. it must be that.
i am coy. too coy. in the negative sense.
and you. a philanderer. i knew. i knew. but didn't want to see.
what right did i have to reject thee?
you and i, we're of the same kind.
again with this guild of impeccability.
simple gestures. emotions stirred.
my fault. my fault. take part will you?
ease the pain.
with a smile.
i made you smile.
you made me sad.

thanks sandy : )

hugs&kisses,

cheer up baby