give me a hug.

*Sunday, February 26, 2006

hmm. masama ba ako?

ooh. look at the time. nice. pero di yan yung saktong oras at date ngayon. haha.

SandyAJ
0 months old

di kailangan sabihin o ihayag sa sangkatauhan.
pero ulul. wala akong pake. haha. actually meron. but still.
masaya eh. WAM. whatamonth. WAW. whataweek. blurr.
pero sa mundo natin. mabagal ang oras.
WAW. whataweek. end. yun na yun :)

i love you alexis jerome martinez tolibas.

haay. natunaw na si puso ko. haha. heart juice. yumm. deadbull. haha :)
wag nalang daan daanan itong post ha. puhlease. aryt? aryt. kantahan nalang tayo.

It never even crossed my mind
That I would fall in love with you
You were always there behind me
But I never looked that way

Friends are friends I looked at them
Nothing more & nothing less
Familiar things you say & do
Seems so strange its not like you

Funny things that made me laugh
Is when I think about the past
I never saw it coming
When I turned around & you were there

I learned today
That I need you more each day
Grab on to you
Don’t ever let go

It came over me in a rush
when I realized that i love you so much
that sometimes i cry
but I cant tell you
why I feel what i feel inside

how I try to express
whats been troublin' my mind
but still I cant find the words
but I know that somethings got a hold of me

baby someday ill find a way to say
just what you mean to me
but if that day never comes along
and you dont hear this song
i guess you'll never know

it came over me in a rush
when I realized that i love you so much
that sometimes i cry
but I cant tell you
why I feel what i feel inside

and when i say inside I mean deep
you fill my soul
and thats something I cant explain
its over me.

talaga lang ah? naghahamon ka pa. haha. next time na yung alpahabet. version ko. teehee :)

plug: i'm sorry i seem so apathetic to our country's current state, or everything else that's going on around us for that matter. i'm not that absorbed with my own love/life. it just seems that way. i, head to heart to soul, am actually greatly affected. what with my lolo getting arrested and my other lolo wanting to choke his ex-friend, the general and activist mum and dad obsessing over 1017 and how gma is wasting what they fought for during their time and the family talking about hiding us, the kids, yet again, i'm just trying to cope with it all. leche. it's martial law/dekada70/orapronobis all over again all at once. school is crazy. home is crazy. leche yung kababawan ng rason for the suspension of classes. nagsilabasan lang sandali yung mga jarhead from their barrax. papansin. nagkagulo pa tuloy sa bahay sa fort. leche. mababaliw ka kung ikaw ako. but i know i'm one of the least unfortunate. alam ko lahat tayo nababaliw na. i just pray for all this to end. no more deaths. no more war. spread the love. thanks aj for being with me through all this ruckus :)

plugplug: banned si aj sa lajave room. banned ang guys sa lajave room. lol. bawal naman talaga kahit bakla pa. haha. salamat sa mga bumatok sakin para matauhan ako. figuratively speaking. salamat ulit sheen at wamar at ceej. miss ko na kayo. lahat kayo. eurostar na tayo 28!

peace all :)

*Wednesday, February 22, 2006

HAPPY BIRTHDAY REMIKA AND DREA :)

today, i let go of the past and the future. haha. mag fam at jayn nalang kayo please ;)
i kissed ~~commitment~~ goodbye.
hello pihsnoitaler ~~nepo~~.
this is ~~going to be~~ sooo confusing.
this going to be FUN :)

kung san ka masaya. bahala ka. talaga!
i shall teach thee my ways.
kahit gaguhan pa yung labas.
it's that lifestyle once again.
yehes. namiss ko toh.

i had a nightmare. i told you i loved you. you said aylabyoto.
gah. buti pa si dream sandy tinake yung risk.
i need a little more guts or eq or something.
naubos ko na lahat sa pagsabi sa kanila. still friends? ofcourse :)
sa pagsabi sa kanya.

plug: nasa rally ka ba? bat wala? i was really hoping you were there. sabi sakin ng tatay kong aktibista. ang sweet sweet talaga ni lito :)

plugplug: dapat hindi naghahanap ng malupit na love song. kasi matatauhan ka lang. fcuk.

GOODBYE - Juana

Didn't mean to hurt you badly
Don't think that I am fooling around with you
So sorry for the time you've wasted on me
So sorry for the things that you went through
But I know that the problem's within me
You're so nice but your love don't deserve me
Or maybe I'm just so scared to fall in love again

I can still remember the days
So many times, I've been hurt
So much trust I put on a relationship
So much suffering I got and the pain still remain
Know I like you but I don't wanna take the risk
So confused and I don't know how to deal with it
Need some time for awhile before I give my heart away

Don't say goodbye
Don't say goodbye
I need some time for awhile before I give my heart away

Now, I know I wasn't thinking before
That's why I'm always ending up with Mr. Wrong
Learning from the past, don't wanna make a mistake
You could be Mr. Right or could be a fake
You know I like you but I don't wanna take the risk
So confused and I don't know how to deal with it
Need some time for awhile before I give my heart away

*Tuesday, February 21, 2006

repost para lang maalala ko ang araw na ito

i'm quitting all the drama.
i'm gonna stick with you.
i enjoy everything we do, no matter what.
you make me appreciate the simple things in life.
the highest concentration of my every teardrop is you.
you make life more meaningful.
you've always made me happy.
you are the smile on my face :)
just so you know

i love you.

TODAY WE COMMEMORATE THE DEATH OF
PROF. DOMINADOR ILIO BE'37 CE'39 GE '39
GOD BLESS HIS BEAUTIFUL SOUL.
ENJOY PO KAYO DIYAN SA LANGIT ;)

*Monday, February 20, 2006

it's only monday and it's not looking so good.

i've been having attendance problems in my subjects. well, i've been having attendance problems since highschool, but who cares, really? actually, i should. and surprisingly my friends give more of a damn than i do. thanks :) anyway, i should really give a damn. damnit. my future depends on it. an instuctor asked me today if i was gonna drop her subject because i used up all my cuts already. she told me that she wouldn't accept me if i still wouldn't attend her class. like duh?? that's common sense. i'm not cutting any subject from this day on. or until the semester ends. ok? ok. so there. she gives me a chocolate bar as some sort of consolation. wtf?? ano ako bata? as if she was saying. oh eto chocolate smile ka na ha. gah. what a way to start your day, or week for that matter. i found myself pouring my heart out at ten in the morning, sitting on a bench, puffing a stick and pinching his "triceps". haha. wow. and as if that wasn't enough. over dinner, i found myself being judged by my egotistic cousin. we ended up writing down all our past subjects and their corresponding grades. leche. parepareho lang kaming gago. mana mana lang talaga yan. our girl friend even suggested that we shift to tourism next sem. aynako. kung magshishift siya ng ie di na ko lilipat noh. haha. laki ulo :) but wait! there's more. we just had to talk about my lovelife. apparently, it's a must now. wow. just because you see me with them it means something already. assume. bat ba lagi nalang pinaguusapan yung puso ko. yung rep ko. yung tingin ng iba. potah. di ko man kaya magisa. kaya ko naman mag-isa. look at rocky. hello? i loved the guy for four long years. i know how to love. i love. lech. a whole day of self realization. oo rah.

what now? i'm ok now. buti nalang nandiyan ka. thanks. for putting a smile on my face. for always ::hugsyoutight::

eto malupet na hirit :)

sa isang malawak na karagatan
may isang salbabidang nakalutang
ngunit dahil sa isang unos
ang salbabida'y nabutasan
at upang ang hangi'y di maubsan
ang nasabing butas ay tinapalan ng bubblegum
makalipas ang panahon
may isang taong dumating
itinapon ang bubblegum
at ang butas ay sinulsi
ganyan ang pagibig dito sating mundo
pagdating ng taong hinahanaphanap mo
ang taong nasa puso sa puso'y isasantabi mo
at ang taong ito'y lubos na magdaramdam
maiisip sa sarili na siya'y walang karapatan
dahil siya'y isang bubblegum
na panakip butas lamang :(

and it keeps on melting

awwww

that's soo sweet

i'm soo touched

::deep breath::thank you::cutesy voice::bats eyelashes::mwah::

thank you lovees for sending your loves and misses.
i love and miss you too. soo much. i will visit you you and you.

i guess valentines isn't over yet. teehee.
miggy love. sandy needs to see you asap :)

lovees. til end of february love month nalang yung eurostar carnivale :(

hugs&kisses,

thegirlwhooughttobeslappedforbeingstuckonvalentinesdayforaweek

*Wednesday, February 15, 2006

aaahh. LOVE.

3 valentines days.

what took you so long?

wow. lucky lucky you. SCORE :)

chocolates and flowers and kisses and hugs and isaw and fishballs and c2 and spirits and nuggets and pancit and bottles and corned beef and adobo and rice and trikes and jeeps and games and stories and bonding and mcdonalds and friends and stars and the sunken garden and all of UP and katipunan and my dorm and everything and more and lovees are love.

i'm on a love high. i'm on a HIGH and all i can feel is bliss :) :) :)

well, i can feel mentos on my ears, but that's another story.

i realized na wala naman yan sa lugar or sa tao. nasa akin lang yan. in the middle of nowhere i will find something SPECIAL to love :)

thanks ceej, icy, gaye, carla, kaye, ayisse, am, ange, ching, camille, kelly clarkson, enzo, mico, danjo, frank, martin, mark, mike, luis, gino, sheen, jehan, aj, koy, joe for being my valentinesss.

i love you.

*Sunday, February 12, 2006

SINGLES-NIGHT-OUT = INUMAN :)

Sandina --

[noun]:

A person who is constantly high

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

to be continued. this week na tol! bwahahaha!

today deserves an entry because toni rose piñero rode a jeepney four times today. 2 up campus, 1 katipunan and an ikot to be exact. woohoo. to up and back. haha. partida naka-flowy mini pa siya. i congratulate you for completing your AB amarunongnakomagcommute degree. yis!

seriously, i think this whole weekend deserves an entry. it's the first time ever, that i spent the weekend at the dorm. i didn't go home last friday, nor did i drink, like i usually do, because we were having our second long exam in chem16, saturday. a BIG up to my sister for reviewing me. hihi.

for you, i wish this week would end quickly. for me, i wish this week would last forever. for everyone, i wish tuesday would be a blast.
VALENTINES HUG FOR EVERYONE :)

i was supposed to go to my geog fieldtrip right after my exam,but decided not to. i wasn't in the mood to go semi-camping, especially without any sleep from the previous night. actually, if we were going spellunking, hiking or climbing, i would've gone, with or without sleep. gah. thinking of the mountains makes me miss rocky. resist. resist. anyway, i could've gone home to makati nalang, but again decided not to. i stayed sa tindahan ni ate marivic for a while. i waited for the boys to leave for the bus station. they were going to aklan for a wake. God Bless his soul -_- . luigi wanted to stuff me in his bag. asa. no laguna or aklan for me so i stayed one more night so that i could accompany toni in watching the uaap judo games at CHK the next day, today, sunday.

gah. i just wanted to know how it felt like to stay the weekend and experience even more "freedom". i shouldn't have stayed over. i feel sad now. i feel bad because i've turned my house into a laundromat. i go home to have my dirty clothes washed and go out with new clean ones. i don't want this. well, i used to, but now, i don't. oo. nakokonsiyenya ako. i'm "living on my own" and i've excluded myself from the family. they haven't been going to mass, or even the mall, together because of my absence. gah. i wanna love them a lot again. i miss my superlover self, kahit ba superhater ako at the same time.

so anyway, sunday, today was a long day. basta "nanuod" kami ng judo sa CHK. may representative from every school. haha. va for ateneo. monica and toni for dlsu. me for up. galing. haha. ako lang samin yung hindi required. pero para sa kaibigan. sige. long story short. champion ang admu. i'm home already <3 and there's blue skies gum stuck on my ass (pantaloon). haha. sayang wala ako sa katipunan para sa inyo ngayon. 5 na kasi ako nakauwi eh :(

i love you. sorry over cliched na yung phrase from me. mahilig ako magmahal eh.

*Saturday, February 11, 2006

lovees, eurostar carnivale trip is TBA :)

omg. this says it all.

i've been bitten by the giddylovebug and it has superglued itself to me. poor bug.

toby: so you love more than one guy
Sandina: i have no idea
Sandina: ewan
toby: But you love 1 guy
Sandina: wait
Sandina: hmmm
Sandina: YES
toby: you dont want to say that he loves you
toby: and you dont wanna let him know you love him?

teehee. kids nowadays. don't be in a hurry. enjoy your youth. lola?

the list is now in the archives.
bwahahaha. links for the persistent ::wink::

*Monday, February 06, 2006

friendship shouldn't be a lot of work - nicole ritchie

the back pose.toni's so red.she's so basag na.haha.ang walang kamatayang MFY ++

i'm glad that, during the weekend, i got a break from this emotional slump i've been having. i've been missing sanago and makati, not necessarily my house, so much, that i cried last thursday. i missed how easy life there was and how i easily got away with my happy-go-lucky ways. i miss my loved ones most of all ofcourse. i miss mfy, amazing friends, familia bulabog. i even miss my stinky little brother, Marti. and yes, no doubt, i miss rocky. valentine's day?

i missed all the bar-hopping we used to do. with jan's absence, we kinda took a break from it and, eventually, lost the will to do it. gah. i felt so deprived of dancing here in qc that i danced til dawn at gb. i'm glad temple's still there for me. it's just sad that greenbelt is slowly dying. the fort is the new "it" place. i live there yet i'm miles away from it. crap. cowpoop.

who did i sleep in between of? ah. jc and cheska. sarap sobra. i missed that. trying to sleeping at five in the morning. trying to fit the twelve of us on a single bed. snuggling and cuddling and snoring and camwhoring. no dull moments. sisters and brothers for life. kakaiyak sa tuwa :)

ayan. that's what i miss. i super miss my loved ones. haha. wala lang. naisip ko lang. kung umuuwi parin kaya ako sa makati, kami na kaya ni joey? lol. sobrang patawa. pero malaki ang possibilities. anyway. it's not that i don't love my friends here. i'm not deprived of people to love. there's an abundance of lovely people to love here. maybe that's my problem right now.

i wish things would be better. but, i can't compromise who i am.
term ni aj...coboy...tama ba? pero kikay din. basta yun. yun ako eh. sorry. i grew up that way. zoids!wohoo!

hay. all i'm sure of right now is I LOVE YOU ALL, ALWAYS :'(

ay. plug. to master luis, thanks in advance :P

*Saturday, February 04, 2006

HUBBABERDEI MIKE AND CAMILLE :)

dude, i wasn't faking it. lol.

*Wednesday, February 01, 2006

i'm happy but sad.

damn i hate ambiguity.

can you be with one person for 20 hours straight?
what if this person hasn't changed clothes or taken a bath?
if you have fun, then why not, right?
salamat kapatid :)

can you stand a person who assumes you like him?
should you agree with others who say it's being big-headed?
if it is true, then why get offended, right?
there will be no chasing. just replacing :) tell me something i don't know.

can you stand yourself when you get yourself hyped up for nothing?
don't you just hate it when, even false hope, isn't given to you?
you shouldn't torture yourself day-to-day with uncertainty, right?
if only it's that easy to open your eyes and wake up from a heavenly dream :)

can you just go with the flow for a change?
shouldn't we all just recognize what blessings the things we already have are?
answers you're looking for are often just staring you in the face, right?
you shouldn't be a slave to your heart. you should coexist :)

"if two past lovers remain friends; it's either they are still inlove
or never were."

whatthefuck? why now? it's making me wonder what i am, what you are, what you were, what we are, what we were, what you and i will be. where do we stand in telescopy? why are there so many things against us? why does taboo exist? i'm asking myself if you're wondering too. are you wondering too? are you aware of what you make me feel? drama. ick. avril lavigne. haha. pero umiiyak ako.

stop. just take my hand and hold me close. let's face this world together :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KRISTIA VELOSO :)
we will all be here and there for you.
don't fret. we love you.