i told my parent already. hoorah. mas sinabon niyo pa ko kaysa sa sarili kong nanay. kaya i'm not taking it anymore. one of these days babaliktad din ang mundo. bwahaha. but i'm not sure if that's a good thing. my mom actually laughed. she said i should transfer to statistics because of the demand in banks. blah. she told me to find a course without a math series. i can't believe this. it's like nothing happened. fine arts is out of the question though. so that's goodbye to industrial design. i am now to go course hunting. today pa talaga alis ni aj. malas. enjoy your long vacation :) anyway, it's seven in the morning. i told my mom a few minutes ago. maybe she wasn't in the mood to scold me. nah. her reaction was priceless. time of day had nothing to do with it. why the heck was i in engineering anyway? panalo talaga. i even have the option to transfer universities. now she tells me. why didn't you go to ateneo? ugh. you've brainwashed me for the past 18 years. shift out ka na tapos ano nga pala tawag dun sa puro ge? non-major. ayun na muna. basta i'm taking that guidance exam sa vinzon's. kasi i'm so lost. what are your dreams and aspirations? to rid others of the frustrations i bring. sabay iyak. ang depressed ng dating. bravo. maybe this is just for today. maybe the worst is to come. pero shocking parin eh. the worst was bakit ka nagkakaganyan. that was it. they really have given up. NOT. ganyan daw talaga ang buhay. wow. salamat.

on a not much lighter note, i think i've done said the unthinkable. these things just creep me out. ay, hindi naman. basta, i'm mortified. i was mortified and i was making that laughing-crying sound with the pillow over my face. i was half-trying to kill myself. oops.