i am now a nomad. i am not peter nor francis. i am so so so much lower. i may be the lowest even. i am a nomad. i am a sinker. i am a failure. i am shit and i know it. i am a non-major. this goodbye to engineering is for real you dickhead. why did i even look at it? i knew. i was sure. attendance was pokeinangtaengshityanmaddafadderkapiranggotofeveryoneelse's. fuck hope. i was, am and forever will be hopeless. HOPE. so what do i do? take it you bitch. just take it. i can't. maybe you could kill me. kill me now. please? i'll take whatever you're taking and maybe sprout out of the ground after a year or two. i am such a rotten mushroom. i am a lower lifeform. not a drop of alcohol after holy week. not a drop. i should suffer suffer suffer. what's left of my insides should be eaten by maggots and carnivorous sponges. to think that mother wants us to go to boracay. maybe i'll let the sun burn me to death. argh. i don't even deserve nice thoughts anymore. ross i can't go with you. i want to but i should be ripped of hands and feet.

natamaan ako sa latest and 3rd from the latest posts ni saab. isama narin natin jan yung kay luis. i guess very sensitive ako about everything right now. lahat ng nakikita ko sa tv or newspaper nirerelate ko sa buhay ko. self-centered talaga ako. rarr. when a part of your life is falling apart, doesn't that make your whole life fall apart too? chain rule or something. it's falling apart. i haven't told them yet. how will i tell them?