it's not the same anymore.
it'll never be the same.
i've grown too attatched to it.
i wanna cry
but nothing comes out.
i want to bleed
but it's not worth it.
instead, i smile.
smile smile smile
just like before
but it's not the same anymore.
i look twice as stupid.
i'll grow twice as bored.
it meant so much to me.
i hearted so many with it.
i laughed,teared,fell with it.
i abused it
and it just took and took and took.
i feel so empty without it.
it's like i lost an arm.
i wanna cry.
it hurts.
then i find myself indifferent.
like it didn't and wouldn't burden anyone.
i'm so friggin extremes.
empathic.
apathetic.
other people look more depressed about it than i do.
i'd jump and smile and joke about it.
i'd laugh and talk and scream about it.
unbelievable
i'm one of the most heartless people sometimes.
yet
i feel happy
for i sprayed and was sprayed wildly,
i slept so soundly
and my heart loved warmly.
and i found myself smiling again
deep inside just like the last time.

good bye dear phone. rocky lost his phone too. we're soo meant to be. haha :)
i will never lose hope
just like i always do.

i lost my baby.
can i have you?
will you now hug me?

hello new old phone.
hello once again once again.