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sandinuh
my name was taken from some place in south america. i like to paint weird colors on my nails. i dress up by mood. i am moody. i'm camera happy. i'm a party person. i want to stop. i go out a whole lot. i procrastinate a lot. i am delayed. i make bad decisions. dancing is a passion i haven't been acting upon. i still love it.the same goes for soccer and wall-climbing. i love to cuddle. i have a boyfriend whom i have nothing in common with. i can live without food but i shouldn't. i crave for isaw most of the time. i make poorly proportioned art that i love. i have clutter, financial, time-management, & commitment issues. it's messed up. Yahoo status dyna_mite29 here's more about me.

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*Sunday, October 22, 2006

note to self:

you are not built for high heels.

*Friday, October 20, 2006

the note book

first, i would like to say - damn you for reading with the least concern in the world! haha. say what now?

i shall post stuff right out of my precious/damn notes. these are things i was, have been, or am "feeling". so...that means they might not be in the NOW they're hullabaloo. i am making no sense at all. haha. and i won't be, ever. i'm starting this [the note book] so that aj can make fun of me even more, when, all the while, i'm making more fun of him. ooh rah!

indistinguishable emotions and the blender is on five, puree. the toxic mix is unable to smoothly slide into the martini glass, wide and narrowing into its shallowness. in beginning, to refuse the entry of the gunk to the already filthy insides. the melange of hues stirs the curiosity and kills the comatose cat. suicidal tendencies are satisfied and there is no stopping the vomit. here it comes, the emotional vomit. it is a fierce virgin indeed. - the way you slip that mint candy between your taken lips and into your chartered mouth awakens my insides to a preverbial sunny morning. eyes smile and the heart tells tales of love for you. the way that every square inch of the slopes of the darkness of your body smells of cigarettes and carnal sweat; the nose is bewildered and will forever pay homage to the saint that is your scented glory. i smile and my heart has nothing but love for you. the heart has nothing but love for you yet it pays in storms. the orb floods to the narrowest of its gallows with the sight of your aches, your frowns, your anger, your absence. it trembles off the richter and it calms within your embrace. the heart is your gallant warrior. it is neither fowl nor swine in its living under your majestic sistine. it lives in hopes of you being the peter. what am i saying? it is simple. happiness is our happiness. don't get mad and don't get even. a sorry is as real as the sun and i am sorry. every touch is held by the soul even as the body has come to wither. every single emotion is as heartfelt as the first kiss. what is this? it is simple...


no. we are not fighting. we are awesome! [surfer dude accent] and the guardian was awesome :)

*Friday, October 13, 2006

i really am retarded.

i can't believe i even entertained the thought of going to the oktoberfest tonight. "the beer there costs 2 pesos." was my brother's sales pitch. i'm such a freaking pushover. i even asked aj if he wanted to go. what the fuck is wrong with all this? aj said, "e finals ko sa physics bukas e." then he told me to study for the math final on monday. you're unbelievable sandy. unbelievable! how can you forget about the finals? i really am retarded.

but i have a feeling aj wanted to go, even if he was totally aware of the exams. he kept on asking where it was and other details. haha. caught you you drunkard. well, that's still better than being absent-minded and beerhappy, i.e. me.

it's friday the 13th, again. i can still remember the last one. it was over-planned and under-accomplished. haha. kaye, you have to do something today. it's a tradition now :) i really think friday the 13th is overrated. there's no bad luck or good luck. yes, some people think that luck goes up. it's just a day like any other. oorrr maybe i'm just saying this because i have buttmarks and am accident-prone.

CuRSe you! agh. should i touch it?

*Thursday, October 12, 2006

why the fuck would you have spaghetti + macaroni soup?

this thing needs coherence. heck, i need coherence.

today was the first time, in three semesters, i took the fifth long exam.

*Wednesday, October 11, 2006

look! it's the bermuda triangle.

i give you [drumroll please]
PANCAKE MAN!

i feel so empty, so useless. i'm the only one who's not super busy. if you take a peek around the corner, a bus might just pass- kablam! failure. it's like i haven't been doing anything right recently. tsktsk. forget about what ever the fuck happened two weeks ago. good girlfriends get good boyfriends. capiche?

*Saturday, October 07, 2006

a heart attack waiting to happen

what: my birthday!
when: october 7, saturday
where: my house - 1 cavalry drive cavalry hills, fort bonifacio, makati

wish list :)
sugar snap peas
string beans
tomatoes
isaw baboy
floss
sisig bun
gold crocs
unique havaianas
hugs
kisses
& lots of


love.

*Wednesday, October 04, 2006

i'm killing the comatose cat.

i think it's time to just let this go- let it out and get it over with.

[version2]
all you have at three in the morning is yourself. no internet, no sheen. no load, no ceej. no aj whatsoever. you have your four sticks of cigarettes and your buko ashtray. and you only have yourself. and your spewing out saline solutions again. fuck is all that's running through your head. and you want to strangle middle alo. you wish someone would listen to your muted shrills. and you wish someone would catch your tears. and you wish someone would mend your dying heart. and you wish someone would just hold your hand and tell you everything will be ok. and you yearn for someone to hold every bit that's left of you. you're slowly dying inside and all you can say is aj is such a fuck. don't make me hate you aj. i don't want to hate you. you're supposed to take care of me. you're supposed to make me smile. you're supposed to want to make me happy, but all you do is nothing. where did my aj go? and your camera isn't working. hell hath no fury like a woman scorn. and all you want to do is die. but then again, all you have at three in the morning is yourself. and you can't wait for tomorrow. all that's making you laugh right now are medina's writings on the wall.

that's over and done with. it's totally meaningless now. it's a big NOTHING. ok?

lots of love buboy :*