give me a hug.

*Monday, May 29, 2006

because the world is against you and love doesn't make it go round

i'm sick.
toni's feelings are contagious
and dammnit not even a rocker's lifestyle can cure this.

*Friday, May 26, 2006

HAPPY

i'm not really sure i should be. i'm so tired of these birthmarks. just my luck would be such a perfect film for me. lol. i am now leaving the decision making to this person. well, i'd be sort of testing it. anyway...

we're three months old and i love it :)

there is something wrong with me. when friends of mine break up, i say "what? why so soon?" eventhough they've been together for like a year or something. i think that's reasonable cause i was with rocky for four years and a year seemed so short. happy birthday rocky on the 27th nga pala. what's wrong is when i'm the one i'm thinking of. months now seem like forever to me. i can't relate to ang bilis naman ng panahon when it's my panahon. egh. weird...

anyway, i am happy...

happy birthday to one of my best girls in the world!

i love you forever baby kash :)

i think miggy triggered this happy spurt. you should check it out too. click the pics! g18! you might feel a bit nostalgic eventhough it has only been a year since college happened. i must say; i miss my block and the good old days. it's weird that those days seem so long ago. miggy pahiram!!!

wala nang siraan ng buhay. magpapakatino na ko. i miss you miggy! i love you :)

one more reason to be happy is that taylor won. yihaay!

oh. sorry sorry for this one tiny trace of angst though.
fuck all those kisses. they didn't mean jack.
fuck you you 'ho. i don't want you back...
i do want my mini skirt back though!

*Monday, May 22, 2006

ooh taay

everything will be ok. this too shall pass. it is passing. everything is ok ::deep breath::

so what happened?

well, our da vinci code didn't but i still got my clarity. i'm going to read the book again to bring back the russel crowe version in my head. nothing beats your imagination but what the heck am i blabbing for. aj says a stupid person can read the book. ugh xmen this week :)

i drove the monster truck from the house all the way to up. all the way baby. my legs hurt from the damn traffic. my eyes hurt from not blinking. my head hurt from TOKIPS. anyway, maybe i won't be getting that auto. i'd probably lose it anyway.

friday was rocky drunk confusing. atleast i made ross happy; i think. i did this drama number on aj but it was all good in the end. i got what i wanted. we disco danced :) :) :) we entered this calamansi relay thing and we lost. sayang yung lulu castagnette gc! but, as i've said, it's all good in the end. gino ross aj and carlos slept over. pajama party!

all's well. still loving ang loved. bhe :P
crs-ing sucks though and i still haven't found my dad's website. elp?

*Tuesday, May 16, 2006

baby it's the hesitation *choke*

regret. i guess that's what i'm feeling right now. i would've kept my mouth shut if i could hold the unhappiness inside. why am i not happy anyway? hesitation. i just figured it out a while ago, when it was too late. i'm hoping all is well by friday so that i wouldn't have a reason to drink. well, that is besides wanting to for fun with friends. i wish watching the da vinci code would bring forth clarity and the gno-ing be dramafree. wtf does this all have to do with a haircut? i dunno. hmm. if i'm having regrets right now, what more if i did get that haircut? good luck.

happy birthday carmen, botchok and elise :)

regret.

i'm plugging from saab's boyplen.

Of course there are also things that make a boyfriend earn pogi points.. It's not necessary but you have to admit that whoever does these things will make them worthy of your good looooovin':

- He genuinely loves being with you.
- He shows you that he enjoys your company.
- He doesn't mind if the barkada is busy and it's just the two of you.
- He knows all the tricks to make you laugh.
- He is a true friend to you.
- He makes it clear that you are more than just a friend to him.
- He knows when to stop kidding around and when to start making lambing.
- When he drops you off anywhere (WHATEVER TIME IT MAY BE) he NEVER leaves until you are out of his sight (nakapasok na ng bahay) and he is sure you are safe.
- He doesn't complain about long walks going to your classroom to pick you up after your class.
- He is protective of you that he mutters "O EASY LANG SA TINGIN" and pulls you close to him whenever a creepy guy is obviously checking you out.
- He says I LOVE YOU unexpectedly and it just makes you melt.
- He is not afraid to be sweet to you even when you are with his friends.
- He holds your hand even when he's talking to another person.
- He puts his hand on your waist or on your lower back when you're in public as if saying "yey, she's mine."
- You are not a trophy girlfriend but he is very proud of you.
- He makes you a part of his family, inviting you to family parties :)
- He knows you are worth all the trouble.
- Regardless of how long you've been together, he never fails to walk on the danger side of the road and make you feel protected whenever you cross to the other side.
- He says you are beautiful and he means it.
- He doesn't really enjoy looking at other girls that much anymore. It's you that he thinks is hot.
- He knows his limits when it comes to going out and stuff.
- He feels lucky to have you.
- He loves your family and he loves it when he's invited to your family celebrations :)
- He doesn't forget important dates (birthday, anniv, etc).
- His face lights up whenever he sees you.
- He runs errands with you.
- He encourages you to do what you wanna do.
- His kisses are the BEST. (hehehehehe)

i don't think it's the colds that's causing the sob fest. ugh. sandy you suck!

*Friday, May 12, 2006

tonic :)

is now my favorite word in the english dictionary. cr comes in second. haha. honestly, that has made me the happiest girl alive. of all the recent words, recent meaning often used recently, that one has gotten the most ngiti hanggang tenga timyS. it deserves a different term. timmy = tang inang mga mukha yan :)

i did the most stupid thing. i tried to park the explorer in the parking lot behind casaa. damn tree. damn humongo auto. damn dumbass driver. haha. so i got out, leaving a person heat-stroked inside, and tried to find a person to park it for me. thank goodness for martin and ayisse. haha. THANK YOOUUU :)

it's carmen's birthday on friday. woohoo. i'm thinking of not drinking because too many people might get involved. accidents nako. bwahahaha. advertisement! sigma beta event on may19 at katips restobar. beer-all-you-can yata kaya samahan niyo na ko. yis :)

if you guys were wondering why in elmo's name is the place 10K per night. here's a preview. sorry i don't have a better pic that includes the beach house and the beach ETC :)

i still can't believe chris got booted off american idol :(

~~to someone: you better get a haircut!~~ thank you :)

*Saturday, May 06, 2006

wtf is with us and the limelight?!

i've been trying not to bring this up. but seeing this picture did it.

go ahead and gasp. OMG. it's jiggs. it's not that we havn't seen this before. we all saw his ken-like bod in the pool during encampment. pero shit, iba parin eh. it's jiggs, our executive wing commander. it's jiggs, bestfriend ni tatay jc. it's jiggs period. will he win? well, let's hope for the best for this batchmate. aynako.

here's what i've been trying to hold in. PBB. potahnginangpbbyan. all my friends have written about it. it's either they're proud of fred and joaqui or they're in disgust. it's all everyone talks about. i, personally, am still just shocked.

si marti walang tigil sa kakadada about how crappy it is. how fred pulled off a gimmick for his audition. they even cut class just to go to abscbn. fred went in doing the whole acp thing. marching, saluting, and even doing the freaking salipawpaw csa mabuhay mabuhay thing. martis' just bitter i guess because he didn't get in. well imagine my horror if that had happened. again, shit. it's fred, aldo's brother. it's fred, marti's batchmate. it's fred period. wtf is with us and the limelight?!

then there was joaqui. i don't really know what's going on. i haven't watched a single episode of the teen edition. i guess i'd feel weird seeing them on tv. alam mo yun? mapapawoahwtf ka. anyway, as i was saying, then there was joaqui. yeah yeah it's obvious he's a guwapito. he did several ads and had those big suncellular billboard ads everywhere. we even dubbed him suncellular boy then ogled him alot. haay. droole ogle droole. but again, my point is, shit. it's wacks, the little boy hanging out sa covered court. it's joaqui period. shit naman, lumaki pa lalo yung fan base niya.

funny yang pbb teen edition. elite mostly yung mga kinuha nila. they don''t need the moolah naman. tapos they're all from the same circles. asa pa that fred never knew nina eh she's just from ac which is in sanlo lang, adjacent to dasma. what a gimmick pare. pare = kristia *winkwink*

anyway, i just got back from bf. oy luis i passed by your place several times. haha. i got soo soupy. so soupy that my food craving lasted until a while ago after i ate that half pint of double dutch. badtrip lang kasi i lost 200 bucks and kash lost her wallet. lost = ninakaw? i dunno. hope kristia didn't get grounded. nagparamdam nanaman yung birthmarks ko. i remember that one time in puerto when kash lost her phone. ako rin kasama niya nun eh. beware people. ooooh connect connect. when kash and i were in puerto, luat was there. first name ni luat is rob. rob is the new apple :)

last kaha na out of that REEM. haha. shit!

*Monday, May 01, 2006

because we'll always have orion and the north star

happy labor day :) we did our share of labor. he fetched me a bucket of water so that i would smell like the mane and tail he loves. i played 'it' in our unspoken agreement. we both walked to market market and back. under the scorching heat from my house and under the influence of caffeine going back. there was this car that was sort of following us home. i swear those guys were gay. not. haha. i have to say this was a very nice day. what was initially a date dedicated to the consumption of two venti capitalism-filled cups turned out to be one for giant heads from outerspace. hmm. if you have a find your favorite planner you'd know what i mean. his was mocha and mine was apple berry. the birthmarks did try to get the best of us but we overpowered them. bwahahaha. two pairs of beautiful eyes vs. two damned birthmarks. no contest. this day deserves a long weeeee! accompanied by a nakakagago face with the sunlight hitting it at just the right angle. plus plus :)

ok ok. this day was a tad libidinal. this day meaning it wasn't concentrated on certain individuals. it was just it as a whole. the little girl was playing with her hula hoop and her tube top was |this| close from falling. nevermind. my share was buying else it was purely girls. i was supposed to get the lost boy but as i was flipping through the pages of gelo's thoughts i knew it had more worth. it was the last one and i might never find wake up and smell the stale tinola ever again.

to forgive the years when her heart knew no sound but his breath is to accept her eyes have seen no shape but his shoulders...because now at the bar she's gotten bored with him--. ~ angelo v. suarez

as he sat at the kanto of cavalry drive and lancer st. i had a chat with rocky. it was such a waste of time. a few minutes that if spent with him would result in bliss. yes yes. i finally talked to rocky today. i don't think i need another one for closure. that was enough for me. i can no longer hold on to another when i know i long for someone else.

ugh. cr break from the venti. maybe i'll puke all the drama out too. then i'll glue the phone to my ear until morning. it's enrollment on monday. are you trying to kill me?