give me a hug.

I'M BACK

2009-05-21T04:52:00.003+07:00

since moving on sounds wrong...

2007-01-18T02:03:00.000+07:00

i am moving to my LJ.

i am now HERE.

i'm still keeping this site but am not maintaining it.
bye. i loved you.

baaakit bakit ba nung up fair blahblahblahkanta :)

2007-01-16T20:13:00.000+07:00

"we were inlove together."

wooh. heavy stuff. may sasakit pa ba jan? i've been thinking about all the wrong things. That statement alone is the reason for all the joy and the pain. leave it to one of your boy friends to remind you of how "you were inlove with someone else back then." thank you for that trip down memory lane. nako, thank you talaga. haha. peace :)

so anyway, i'm blaming the lovapalooza-ish event on saturday for my current anguish. haha. i'm totally kidding ofcourse! because i'm inviting you:

UP JMA & Close-Up presents:
Paparazzi! Kissing Seen!
A Culminating Party for the Close-Up Lovapalooza PrintAd Contest!
January 20, Saturday, 10pm at Temple Bar GB2
Free Flowing San Mig Light, San Mig Strong Ice, Jack Daniels, Jaggermeister and more!
Php 250

The best-dressed couple wins a helicopter ride and a dinner date at Hotel Intercontinental!
Party pictures will be featured in Chalk magazine!

so pumunta na kayo. start your valentines right and early!
at dahil uso ang break-ups, it's a great venue to mingle with singles! hahaha. kidding :P

aj has a very good reason not to go, it's written up there and it has 3 letters, so don't think i'm pissed. there's always the ball. yey! basta let's bring dates so we can win that helicopter ride ok? :)

happy 19th birthday jannine!!!

i miss you so much :*

to "al"

2007-01-14T21:35:00.000+07:00

i wonder where i put my else it was purely girls.
here's something i dug up. i guess it's a tad applicable for now:

because i may never have the privelege of being your friend after you've gone up and down: fallen and risen, unlike the others, is why i cry for you. i am selfish.

because i may never experience standing with you with unclenched fists and willing hearts is why i cry for you. i am a coward.

because i may never get to drink with you, with the absence of all the bitterness but the fermented yeast's, and your unsickly sweet laughter, is why i cry for you. i am wasted.

because i may never be held like i hold, paying with my soul in full, is why i cry for you. i am broke-n.

because i may never feel your adulterous caress, i remain yours.

uuuy. BALIKAN NA BA TO?

losing and making no sense at all.

2007-01-11T18:41:00.000+07:00

it's like quitting smoking but you don't know you're puffing on the last stick you'll ever have.
i finished my last stick and i didn't even know it.

i know i should feel happy. i'm losing the habit that for so many months i've been trying to lose. but i don't feel happy. i lost. that's what i feel.

i lost and it's not even a game.

i was a basketball player about to retire but i didn't even know my age. to me, every game, every day was the first.

i lost and i wasn't even playing the game.

the game. i used to play it and i felt invincible... until the day i knew what invincible was.

why am i crying?
because there was invincibility.
because i lost.
but if there is still hope and i haven't really lost, i'm crying because i will lose... the one i cry for.

no sense. i'm not ok.

someone who looks like colin freakin farrel won't make things ok.
someone who drives you everywhere in a fancy car won't make things ok.
someone who buys you goddamn christmas havaianas won't make things ok.
someone who holds your hips and sways with you won't make things ok.
all you need is someone to love and love you back. then you'll be ok.

that someone will hug you too. give me a hug please :)

:* for always eydyey.

welcome 2007

2007-01-06T18:44:00.000+07:00

so many things have happened this past year but you are right. we are living endless cycle cycles.

note to self:

2006-10-22T04:11:00.000+07:00

you are not built for high heels.

the note book

2006-10-20T23:02:00.000+07:00

first, i would like to say - damn you for reading with the least concern in the world! haha. say what now?

i shall post stuff right out of my precious/damn notes. these are things i was, have been, or am "feeling". so...that means ~~they might not be in the NOW~~ they're hullabaloo. i am making no sense at all. haha. and i won't be, ever. i'm starting this [the note book] so that aj can make fun of me even more, when, all the while, i'm making more fun of him. ooh rah!

indistinguishable emotions and the blender is on five, puree. the toxic mix is unable to smoothly slide into the martini glass, wide and narrowing into its shallowness. in beginning, to refuse the entry of the gunk to the already filthy insides. the melange of hues stirs the curiosity and kills the comatose cat. suicidal tendencies are satisfied and there is no stopping the vomit. here it comes, the emotional vomit. it is a fierce virgin indeed. - the way you slip that mint candy between your taken lips and into your chartered mouth awakens my insides to a preverbial sunny morning. eyes smile and the heart tells tales of love for you. the way that every square inch of the slopes of the darkness of your body smells of cigarettes and carnal sweat; the nose is bewildered and will forever pay homage to the saint that is your scented glory. i smile and my heart has nothing but love for you. the heart has nothing but love for you yet it pays in storms. the orb floods to the narrowest of its gallows with the sight of your aches, your frowns, your anger, your absence. it trembles off the richter and it calms within your embrace. the heart is your gallant warrior. it is neither fowl nor swine in its living under your majestic sistine. it lives in hopes of you being the peter. what am i saying? it is simple. happiness is our happiness. don't get mad and don't get even. a sorry is as real as the sun and i am sorry. every touch is held by the soul even as the body has come to wither. every single emotion is as heartfelt as the first kiss. what is this? it is simple...

no. we are not fighting. we are awesome! [surfer dude accent] and the guardian was awesome :)

i really am retarded.

2006-10-13T18:04:00.000+07:00

i can't believe i even entertained the thought of going to the oktoberfest tonight. "the beer there costs 2 pesos." was my brother's sales pitch. i'm such a freaking pushover. i even asked aj if he wanted to go. what the fuck is wrong with all this? aj said, "e finals ko sa physics bukas e." then he told me to study for the math final on monday. you're unbelievable sandy. unbelievable! how can you forget about the finals? i really am retarded.

but i have a feeling aj wanted to go, even if he was totally aware of the exams. he kept on asking where it was and other details. haha. caught you you drunkard. well, that's still better than being absent-minded and beerhappy, i.e. me.

it's friday the 13th, again. i can still remember the last one. it was over-planned and under-accomplished. haha. kaye, you have to do something today. it's a tradition now :) i really think friday the 13th is overrated. there's no bad luck or good luck. yes, some people think that luck goes up. it's just a day like any other. oorrr maybe i'm just saying this because i have buttmarks and am accident-prone.

CuRSe you! agh. should i touch it?

why the fuck would you have spaghetti + macaroni soup?

2006-10-12T21:56:00.000+07:00

this thing needs coherence. heck, i need coherence.

today was the first time, in three semesters, i took the fifth long exam.

look! it's the bermuda triangle.

2006-10-11T20:43:00.000+07:00

i give you [drumroll please]
PANCAKE MAN!

i feel so empty, so useless. i'm the only one who's not super busy. if you take a peek around the corner, a bus might just pass- kablam! failure. it's like i haven't been doing anything right recently. tsktsk. forget about what ever the fuck happened two weeks ago. good girlfriends get good boyfriends. capiche?

a heart attack waiting to happen

2006-10-07T00:00:00.000+07:00

what: my birthday!
when: october 7, saturday
where: my house - 1 cavalry drive cavalry hills, fort bonifacio, makati

wish list :)
sugar snap peas
string beans
tomatoes
isaw baboy
floss
sisig bun
gold crocs
unique havaianas
hugs
kisses
& lots of

love.

i'm killing the comatose cat.

2006-10-04T18:13:00.000+07:00

i think it's time to just let this go- let it out and get it over with.

[version2]
all you have at three in the morning is yourself. no internet, no sheen. no load, no ceej. no aj whatsoever. you have your four sticks of cigarettes and your buko ashtray. and you only have yourself. and your spewing out saline solutions again. fuck is all that's running through your head. and you want to strangle middle alo. you wish someone would listen to your muted shrills. and you wish someone would catch your tears. and you wish someone would mend your dying heart. and you wish someone would just hold your hand and tell you everything will be ok. and you yearn for someone to hold every bit that's left of you. you're slowly dying inside and all you can say is aj is such a fuck. don't make me hate you aj. i don't want to hate you. you're supposed to take care of me. you're supposed to make me smile. you're supposed to want to make me happy, but all you do is nothing. where did my aj go? and your camera isn't working. hell hath no fury like a woman scorn. and all you want to do is die. but then again, all you have at three in the morning is yourself. and you can't wait for tomorrow. all that's making you laugh right now are medina's writings on the wall.

that's over and done with. it's totally meaningless now. it's a big NOTHING. ok?

lots of love buboy :*

haha. potahngina.

2006-09-29T18:42:00.000+07:00

don't fuck with this sacred thing.

2006-08-28T19:01:00.000+07:00

muted shrills,vicarious moaning,quick fixes, and seemingly semi but are actually forced entries. it's all so fucked up. it's living a shakespeare. nocturnal emissions and saline solutions you take forgranted you fuck. smashed potatoes running through your head. all you have is closed-lipped lip service. the carnal exchanges are eternities away from nirvana. you're such a loser damnnit. i'm living in emotional suicide and heart rape you pocket pool boy. this is self mutilation and all i hear is your bitter laughter. my smile on a cartwheel. maggots on every fragment of half-being. admit it you fuck. we are but a caffeine anti-fix. here it is. the suffocation of hindy, sandy and kitsche. we? the toxic dump of the fourth dimension. murder the soul you grim grim reaper. are we regret with two pairs of feet? no fucking starcrossed lovers. what is this so-called passion? the late love.

don't fuck with this sacred thing.

yeah. i'm grounded. 9pm curfew on weekdays. 12am curfew on fridays. no sleepovers. no more dormitory. no more free cab rides. commute to school every day. no failing grades(duh?!) less cash, i think. it's not so bad. yeah. i'm just so fucked up and scared. being black-mailed by mother. close to strangulation by father. i only fear for you. you. you.

i might be going on a hiatus. fuck. quit being an asshole who's only there when i'm about to leave.

happy birthday buboy. gurang ka na and i'm still prettier than you.

2006-08-19T00:00:00.000+07:00

it was messy. it still is. i know. i love you nonetheless. i guess.

you're so fucking special.

maybe it's love? nge.

2006-08-16T00:35:00.000+07:00

~~chem lec quiz~~
~~soc sci 1 4-page midterm~~
experiment 8 formal report
experiment 9 quali analysis
aj birthday week :)

good luck! kaya mo yan. and ange, tama ka.

oh yeah. we broke up.

goddamnnit my eyes hurt.

2006-07-31T19:27:00.000+07:00

i know it was so last week but you should really watch the break-up. i laughed my head off. you would too because everything sounds so familiar. no one ever really got me my twelve lemons dammnit. forgive me. i'm sloshed.

sayang yung beer. fuck. so much for that. i hate bitter people. get a life next semester you freaking sorority/frat girl.

oh yes :)

i don't believe that anybody feels the way i do about you now.

2006-07-24T20:23:00.000+07:00

woohoo. just like everyone expected. haha. we watched lady in the water since classes were suspended because of the sona. it was really nice. it's one of those stories you get so hooked into and it makes you feel like there's still some magic/hope in this world. [three cheers] i kept hugging my jumbo bag of cheese popcorn. go figure. i never really liked paul giamatti. i'm not sure why. maybe i should've watched sideways. i have to watch the break up first. it's showing on the 26th. it's our 5th 28thsary. it's perfect. [sign?] haay nako so sally can wait babbling. enough. i'm just excited that it's almost august and i'm going to busy myself with the big 18th. are you game for one giant sleepover?

i'm currently downloading highschool musical stuff for my little sister. kids nowadays get pretty obsessive ah. look who's talking? [still singing wonderwall]

chem 17 firts long exam's on sunday. cross your fingers, hands , legs, and toes for me. thanks :)

Friendster Horoscope for July 24, 2006
Leo (Jul 23 - Aug 22)
The Bottom Line
You may see it as an obstruction, but someone you love is looking out for you now.
In Detail
Sometimes people we love tell us things we don't want to hear -- it's called honesty. So if you're looking for support and find skepticism in its place today, don't blame the messenger. The people you trust are looking out for you, whether you realize it or not. And sure, their advice may be undesirable (and unwanted), but they're only trying to help you. You can still move ahead with your ideas as planned, but don't hold a grudge -- those who try to stop you are on your side.

well um well um well um. i 'fessed up about everything, even the fighting temptations. stupid sandy stupid. oh the things you do for love [buboy].

buboy,

2006-07-21T18:33:00.000+07:00

this is stupid.

movie-wise

2006-07-19T18:45:00.000+07:00

i love you channing tatum. i love your abs. i love that you play soccer. i love that in some alternate universe you're willing to teach me and play with me. i love that you're not intimidated and you're willing to do something like soccer, or any other physical activity, with your girl. i love that you're a tough guy with a soft inside. i love that you're totally torpe. i love everything about you. i want to have you. [i love that you're bisexual. i want to have you.]

naman, if you don't get this, i don't know how else you will.

happy birthday ramon miguel elefante abeleda :)
i miss you.

para sa best boylet ni aj

2006-07-16T18:30:00.000+07:00

para sa enrollment adventures, inuman sa sunken, paglalaba ng wala sa oras, daldalan hanggang magkaaraw na, pagsasama sa panahon ng luha at tawanan, panininwala sa amin ni buboy, suporta nung panahon ng bs, at sa lahat ng napagdaanan natin sheen, salamat :)

happy 18th birthday morning buddy!

i just got home from makati med. i realized how big a chicken i still am. i actually asked my mom if it would hurt more than a facial would. i think they got that good-looking guy on purpose to take my blood. or maybe i was hallucinating. two freaking vials?? to think, i just lost 5-8 tablespoons from last week's you know what. i was definitely hallucinating. now everything lies on my immune system's hands and i realize that it's either nonexistent or a completely seperate entity. i haven't done anything good for my body in the looongest time. there's the occasional salad trip, but i barely eat so what good would the salad trip do? please nobody mention yb.

im gonna be absent til tuesday. hope ill make it to sheen's :)

here's the cure to any illness. have some eye candy. please vote for frank magalona, paco villegas and REYNALD LAPAN @ candy cuties

the adventures of buboy gubat and bong liit

2006-07-15T15:44:00.000+07:00

we had our own little prom at wakwak country club. check out our album. too bad we didn't meet a year before to have a real one. but then again, now is so much better. i'm just sorry i failed the kiss part. you will always be my cesaw montano <3

away-bati-insecurities-away-bati what's new?

"mukhang mapapadalas yung mga ganun ah. sama kayo sa susunod na inom. bring your friends." thanks for coming kristia ding and kash :)

why is everyone kinikilig nowadays? marami nanamang madedevelop in the next months.

haunting sound as the real thing

2006-07-09T21:52:00.000+07:00

i did a quick change in layout because of a long overdue in realization. the first look theme was just too cheesy and that's something i can't be. we don't have cold nights and fires and white wine. we have every other day fights over sms-less sundays and overnight homeless hours of intellectual intercourse over cino [pepsi-coffee]. it will always be that way cause that's what makes us us. we are the grave that i refuse to leave and the refuge that i built to flee. you may see it as incredibly draining and pointless maybe because it is. but none of that means that our pasts are better than our presents. we have a lot to fix but we're fixable. maybe we can never have that mushy thing but it doesn't mean we care less. in fact we have more more more. sorry for insects who feed on others' despair. so can you just quit it please and leave us alone? fuck the away-bati reputation. hah, this entry is so spiteful yet i'm really not.

and no, he isn't higher, he's just higher than you. *that's so mean but true*

favorite student na ko ni sir alvin and i get a high five from aj. hahaha. mister you've got the wrong kid. i don't have a crush on you ;)

HAD A LOT OF FUN LAST WEEK. THANK YOU <3

butterfly and chocolate kisses

2006-07-01T15:57:00.000+07:00

overwhelming week, i have to say. we had a good 28thsary last monday. maybe it was too nice that we had a little scare til wednesday. thanks to viv for the relief. haaay. chem 17 dominated most of my time and thoughts. i hope i can go through it succesfully. experiment 1 palang nasabaw na ko.

a big yellow butterfly flew in viv's flat while i was there. we spent ten minutes trying to avoid it yet trying to catch it. its was fun shrieking like little girls. we eventually caught it with a spiderman cup and then set it free. viv said i attracted the butterfly. haha. then there was this bee hovering over me yesterday. and then aj and i were talking about the ants i had when i was little. what with the insects noh? i'm too sweet. haha. ulul.

i love how things have been going back to normal. ceej icy kaye ange carla nina yanie sam aj ej ekai and i went to smoa [sm mall of asia] yesterday to watch fete de la musique. aj and i got to watch all four different concerts. we went home at 4. everyone else went home early. sayang, i was ogling ely buendia, who was sitting at our table at figaro, right after they left. actually [ding] that was aj's fault. anyway, what was i saying about things going back to normal? aaahh. we get to talk like there's no tomorrow and stroll, not knowing where we're going. not just yesterday, but the whole week :)

[whole week] our saturday/sunday plans coincided and we ended up watching the rockEd event, catching a disappointing glimpse of the englandvsportugal game, buying ark royal pipes, chowing at something fishy, and laughing our heads off at *jonas* expense. cheers to a happy week and a musical weekend for the ~~happy~~ weird couple.

i'm happy and no fuglypseudosorogirL can ruin that.

happy birthday jb aliling (july1)
happy birthday va del rosario (july3)
happy birthday acela gillamac aka ashley olsen (july6)

happy 4th 28thsary!

2006-06-26T03:13:00.000+07:00

tambayan-chocolate kiss-up film center-katipunan-lisa's house-home adventure :)

if black is the absence of all colors, what happens if you delete black?

2006-06-24T13:47:00.000+07:00

maybe you'd come out with nothing. but then again, what is nothing? if i delete black, maybe i'd come out with this jarring feeling of emptiness. MAYBE. the fear of the unknown is frightening and i am chicken shit.

black hole. an object with such a strong gravitational pull that no matter or energy can escape from it. it is believed to form when stars collapse in upon themselves. a thing into which objects disappear and are not expected to be seen again.

side topic. FA30 is making me happy. it's art pleasures and there's no harm in admiring beauty. plus, the course description is the fun art of enjoying art. i think i'll also be trying to do that with math. noh kaye? hahaha. we're more like the former master than we thought :)

it's funny how recent events remind me of my childhood of not so long ago, when i shot my pellet gun at that fat kid's tummy. away- bati- away- bati. we went at it for weeks. the only difference now is the addition of malabo to the unending circus. why can't it be as simple as before, when we knew who we wouldn't share our lollipops with?

don't we all just wish we were kids again? instead of acting like some.

frat boys suck

2006-06-17T11:12:00.000+07:00

well maybe not. i'll wait for blockboo nalang. atleast yun may kwenta at di pa nagugulo utak ko. it's on july 4-16. bwahaha. but since i'm fuming right now, frat boys still suck ass. camille saw this poster sa engg that said FAG. then i blurted out this twisted idea of running by their place and shouting fag! haay. sandy you are hopeless.

i am hopeless. i'm still not enrolled and that will definitely last til tuesday. i reached the point where i had my 19 units and was only looking for a pe. now i'm back to 16 and have to prerog on tuesday morning. this un-enrollment will definitely last til tuesday. crap! plus, i have two freshie instructors, one says everything twice and the other is a handsome gossip, who kaye has a crush on. haha. so much for that. the highlight of the week was probably elline visiting and taking a picture with me and kaye. pano naman kasi, i didn't get to watch the brazil-croatia game. binalita lang sakin na siyempre brazil won 1-0. kaka scored before halftime. i love you kaka. ahah! further proof of my hopelessness!

i miss the boy who held me just right.
i miss the boy who made me smile.
i miss the boy who sang to me under the stars.
i miss the boy who made me close my eyes.
i miss the boy who did what he had to do.
i miss the boy who said good morning, good night and everything in between.
i miss the boy. i miss THAT boy. is that so hard to understand?

hmm. i think the world is trying to tell me to spend more time on things i've neglected. thank you everyone. you're the best friends in the world :)

FA30 please make me happy *crossesfingers*

spark hope

2006-06-10T01:34:00.000+07:00

monday is starbucks day. i'm so looking forward to it.

enrollment isn't over yet. i can't really rejoice, not yet nor ever. i am now a citizen of the mountain. hello bs mining engineering. hello chem 17. well i still need math+pe+cwts+chem17 or (ge+es1) for myself. i was thinking of getting cheerdancing or pilates. someone else needs 2pe+physics71+71.1+2ge or (chE2+ge). elp? anyone? any suggestions? oh well. hello prerog dates :)

the worst part of this week was when i was told i had to pass an appeal. what a forkin day bugger. it just brought useless panicking, stupid fights, and not so shallow tears. our heads got derailed for a day thanks to that damn yellow paper. it turned out that i was doing the right thing to begin with. my plan was actually the right one.

and now we CHANGE. last chance.

chicken!

2006-06-06T21:53:00.000+07:00

oh crap. hindi ko kinaya yung the omen. medyo nabugbog ko yata yung katabi ko sa kaka-duck during scary shit. medyo bitin yung movie. pangit yung ending. ang yabang ko pa magyaya manuod kasi triple 6 ngayon. sabi ko pa hindi nakakatakot yung kid kasi napanuod ko yung interview niya sa isang tv show. pero shit talaga. i might get nightmares ala emily rose or something. damn scary psychological shit is the worse. the woooorse! naisip namin kanina, ang malas naman nung mga pinanganak today. they're like devil children or somethng. haha. kidding. naisip ko, paano yung devil child dun sa movie? pag napanuod ba niya yun matatakot siya? same goes for all the scary movie kids like samara. sasabihin ba niya oy ako yun ah? or will he hide like a little coward just like me? happy birthday nalang sa lahat ng may birthday ngayon.

memorable yata tong araw na toh. tiga area 1 na ko. nightmare or blessing in disguise?

speaking of chickens and birthdays...

june 7

hahahahappy bibibibirthday maria margarita flores!

lesbo action and the downside of bringing your guy to a party

2006-06-04T22:11:00.000+07:00

you're m.i.a.
you don't get to participate in lesbo action or ishlurp!
you don't get to be in many pics
at sasakalin ka ni meia. lol. kidding!

atleast he got to meet 10/13 and i got to see my hair in action :)

so long so long

2006-06-03T00:44:00.000+07:00

tada! i finally did it because i was hoping for some kind of release. but alas, my efforts were futile and i still feel this constant shortness of breath and squeezing of chest. dammnit, i am still alive and i look like an anime character. crapacrapacrapa that haircut cost me yesterday's lunch. i was thinking of not posting a pic so that i could surprise some folks but a lot of my friends don't recognize me. one guy stared for a minute before realization struck. then one even hesitated to come up to me despite noticing the lakad sandy. haha. you know who you are and i love you. and HE stared at the floor where his love lay. the hair that use to lie on my head. oh well, thanks to every one who love it for loving it. i'm still getting these episodes. ugh. enrollment's coming and it's scaring me shitless. ahoy! aj's quitting smoking! crap. the feeling \/ stays.

omg she sounds just like gela.

because the world is against you and love doesn't make it go round

2006-05-29T01:07:00.000+07:00

i'm sick.
toni's feelings are contagious
and dammnit not even a rocker's lifestyle can cure this.

HAPPY

2006-05-26T00:00:00.000+07:00

i'm not really sure i should be. i'm so tired of these birthmarks. just my luck would be such a perfect film for me. lol. i am now leaving the decision making to this person. well, i'd be sort of testing it. anyway...

we're three months old and i love it :)

there is something wrong with me. when friends of mine break up, i say "what? why so soon?" eventhough they've been together for like a year or something. i think that's reasonable cause i was with rocky for four years and a year seemed so short. happy birthday rocky on the 27th nga pala. what's wrong is when i'm the one i'm thinking of. months now seem like forever to me. i can't relate to ang bilis naman ng panahon when it's my panahon. egh. weird...

anyway, i am happy...

happy birthday to one of my best girls in the world!

i love you forever baby kash :)

i think miggy triggered this happy spurt. you should check it out too. click the pics! g18! you might feel a bit nostalgic eventhough it has only been a year since college happened. i must say; i miss my block and the good old days. it's weird that those days seem so long ago. miggy pahiram!!!

wala nang siraan ng buhay. magpapakatino na ko. i miss you miggy! i love you :)

one more reason to be happy is that taylor won. yihaay!

oh. sorry sorry for this one tiny trace of angst though.
fuck all those kisses. they didn't mean jack.
fuck you you 'ho. i don't want you back...
i do want my mini skirt back though!

ooh taay

2006-05-22T04:20:00.000+07:00

everything will be ok. this too shall pass. it is passing. everything is ok ::deep breath::

so what happened?

well, our da vinci code didn't but i still got my clarity. i'm going to read the book again to bring back the russel crowe version in my head. nothing beats your imagination but what the heck am i blabbing for. aj says a stupid person can read the book. ugh xmen this week :)

i drove the monster truck from the house all the way to up. all the way baby. my legs hurt from the damn traffic. my eyes hurt from not blinking. my head hurt from TOKIPS. anyway, maybe i won't be getting that auto. i'd probably lose it anyway.

friday was rocky drunk confusing. atleast i made ross happy; i think. i did this drama number on aj but it was all good in the end. i got what i wanted. we disco danced :) :) :) we entered this calamansi relay thing and we lost. sayang yung lulu castagnette gc! but, as i've said, it's all good in the end. gino ross aj and carlos slept over. pajama party!

all's well. still loving ang loved. bhe :P
crs-ing sucks though and i still haven't found my dad's website. elp?

baby it's the hesitation choke

2006-05-16T03:37:00.000+07:00

regret. i guess that's what i'm feeling right now. i would've kept my mouth shut if i could hold the unhappiness inside. why am i not happy anyway? hesitation. i just figured it out a while ago, when it was too late. i'm hoping all is well by friday so that i wouldn't have a reason to drink. well, that is besides wanting to for fun with friends. i wish watching the da vinci code would bring forth clarity and the gno-ing be dramafree. wtf does this all have to do with a haircut? i dunno. hmm. if i'm having regrets right now, what more if i did get that haircut? good luck.

happy birthday carmen, botchok and elise :)

regret.

i'm plugging from saab's boyplen.

Of course there are also things that make a boyfriend earn pogi points.. It's not necessary but you have to admit that whoever does these things will make them worthy of your good looooovin':

- He genuinely loves being with you.
- He shows you that he enjoys your company.
- He doesn't mind if the barkada is busy and it's just the two of you.
- He knows all the tricks to make you laugh.
- He is a true friend to you.
- He makes it clear that you are more than just a friend to him.
- He knows when to stop kidding around and when to start making lambing.
- When he drops you off anywhere (WHATEVER TIME IT MAY BE) he NEVER leaves until you are out of his sight (nakapasok na ng bahay) and he is sure you are safe.
- He doesn't complain about long walks going to your classroom to pick you up after your class.
- He is protective of you that he mutters "O EASY LANG SA TINGIN" and pulls you close to him whenever a creepy guy is obviously checking you out.
- He says I LOVE YOU unexpectedly and it just makes you melt.
- He is not afraid to be sweet to you even when you are with his friends.
- He holds your hand even when he's talking to another person.
- He puts his hand on your waist or on your lower back when you're in public as if saying "yey, she's mine."
- You are not a trophy girlfriend but he is very proud of you.
- He makes you a part of his family, inviting you to family parties :)
- He knows you are worth all the trouble.
- Regardless of how long you've been together, he never fails to walk on the danger side of the road and make you feel protected whenever you cross to the other side.
- He says you are beautiful and he means it.
- He doesn't really enjoy looking at other girls that much anymore. It's you that he thinks is hot.
- He knows his limits when it comes to going out and stuff.
- He feels lucky to have you.
- He loves your family and he loves it when he's invited to your family celebrations :)
- He doesn't forget important dates (birthday, anniv, etc).
- His face lights up whenever he sees you.
- He runs errands with you.
- He encourages you to do what you wanna do.
- His kisses are the BEST. (hehehehehe)

i don't think it's the colds that's causing the sob fest. ugh. sandy you suck!

tonic :)

2006-05-12T23:28:00.000+07:00

is now my favorite word in the english dictionary. cr comes in second. haha. honestly, that has made me the happiest girl alive. of all the recent words, recent meaning often used recently, that one has gotten the most ngiti hanggang tenga timyS. it deserves a different term. timmy = tang inang mga mukha yan :)

i did the most stupid thing. i tried to park the explorer in the parking lot behind casaa. damn tree. damn humongo auto. damn dumbass driver. haha. so i got out, leaving a person heat-stroked inside, and tried to find a person to park it for me. thank goodness for martin and ayisse. haha. THANK YOOUUU :)

it's carmen's birthday on friday. woohoo. i'm thinking of not drinking because too many people might get involved. accidents nako. bwahahaha. advertisement! sigma beta event on may19 at katips restobar. beer-all-you-can yata kaya samahan niyo na ko. yis :)

if you guys were wondering why in elmo's name is the place 10K per night. here's a preview. sorry i don't have a better pic that includes the beach house and the beach ETC :)

i still can't believe chris got booted off american idol :(

~~to someone: you better get a haircut!~~ thank you :)

wtf is with us and the limelight?!

2006-05-06T22:29:00.000+07:00

i've been trying not to bring this up. but seeing this picture did it.

go ahead and gasp. OMG. it's jiggs. it's not that we havn't seen this before. we all saw his ken-like bod in the pool during encampment. pero shit, iba parin eh. it's jiggs, our executive wing commander. it's jiggs, bestfriend ni tatay jc. it's jiggs period. will he win? well, let's hope for the best for this batchmate. aynako.

here's what i've been trying to hold in. PBB. potahnginangpbbyan. all my friends have written about it. it's either they're proud of fred and joaqui or they're in disgust. it's all everyone talks about. i, personally, am still just shocked.

si marti walang tigil sa kakadada about how crappy it is. how fred pulled off a gimmick for his audition. they even cut class just to go to abscbn. fred went in doing the whole acp thing. marching, saluting, and even doing the freaking salipawpaw csa mabuhay mabuhay thing. martis' just bitter i guess because he didn't get in. well imagine my horror if that had happened. again, shit. it's fred, aldo's brother. it's fred, marti's batchmate. it's fred period. wtf is with us and the limelight?!

then there was joaqui. i don't really know what's going on. i haven't watched a single episode of the teen edition. i guess i'd feel weird seeing them on tv. alam mo yun? mapapawoahwtf ka. anyway, as i was saying, then there was joaqui. yeah yeah it's obvious he's a guwapito. he did several ads and had those big suncellular billboard ads everywhere. we even dubbed him suncellular boy then ogled him alot. haay. droole ogle droole. but again, my point is, shit. it's wacks, the little boy hanging out sa covered court. it's joaqui period. shit naman, lumaki pa lalo yung fan base niya.

funny yang pbb teen edition. elite mostly yung mga kinuha nila. they don''t need the moolah naman. tapos they're all from the same circles. asa pa that fred never knew nina eh she's just from ac which is in sanlo lang, adjacent to dasma. what a gimmick pare. pare = kristia *winkwink*

anyway, i just got back from bf. oy luis i passed by your place several times. haha. i got soo soupy. so soupy that my food craving lasted until a while ago after i ate that half pint of double dutch. badtrip lang kasi i lost 200 bucks and kash lost her wallet. lost = ninakaw? i dunno. hope kristia didn't get grounded. nagparamdam nanaman yung birthmarks ko. i remember that one time in puerto when kash lost her phone. ako rin kasama niya nun eh. beware people. ooooh connect connect. when kash and i were in puerto, luat was there. first name ni luat is rob. rob is the new apple :)

last kaha na out of that REEM. haha. shit!

because we'll always have orion and the north star

2006-05-01T23:33:00.000+07:00

happy labor day :) we did our share of labor. he fetched me a bucket of water so that i would smell like the mane and tail he loves. i played 'it' in our unspoken agreement. we both walked to market market and back. under the scorching heat from my house and under the influence of caffeine going back. there was this car that was sort of following us home. i swear those guys were gay. not. haha. i have to say this was a very nice day. what was initially a date dedicated to the consumption of two venti capitalism-filled cups turned out to be one for giant heads from outerspace. hmm. if you have a find your favorite planner you'd know what i mean. his was mocha and mine was apple berry. the birthmarks did try to get the best of us but we overpowered them. bwahahaha. two pairs of beautiful eyes vs. two damned birthmarks. no contest. this day deserves a long weeeee! accompanied by a nakakagago face with the sunlight hitting it at just the right angle. plus plus :)

ok ok. this day was a tad libidinal. this day meaning it wasn't concentrated on certain individuals. it was just it as a whole. the little girl was playing with her hula hoop and her tube top was |this| close from falling. nevermind. my share was buying else it was purely girls. i was supposed to get the lost boy but as i was flipping through the pages of gelo's thoughts i knew it had more worth. it was the last one and i might never find wake up and smell the stale tinola ever again.

to forgive the years when her heart knew no sound but his breath is to accept her eyes have seen no shape but his shoulders...because now at the bar she's gotten bored with him--. ~ angelo v. suarez

as he sat at the kanto of cavalry drive and lancer st. i had a chat with rocky. it was such a waste of time. a few minutes that if spent with him would result in bliss. yes yes. i finally talked to rocky today. i don't think i need another one for closure. that was enough for me. i can no longer hold on to another when i know i long for someone else.

ugh. cr break from the venti. maybe i'll puke all the drama out too. then i'll glue the phone to my ear until morning. it's enrollment on monday. are you trying to kill me?

on a reading frenzy

2006-04-29T01:53:00.000+07:00

the computer refused to turn on. well maybe it overheated. i was computerless and netless for two weeks. woopeedoo. i shall now rant in no chronological order or in no order at all.

due to boredom and the unfortunate placement of a birthmark, impulsive shopping has reached an all-time high. picture a frantic-looking girl entering every single shop searching the piles for a size 0. the minute she finds one, her face lights up. the sales person notices instantly and attacks. the girl is unable to say nooo. she leaves the store trying to convince herself that it's OK. crap.

i bought aj a rim of dunhill. ok ok i couldn't stomach giving him the whole thing. i took i don't know how many and gave some to beloved porno stars. oh joy. share ko lang. 70 php ang isang kaha kay manang malapit sa lib. yung manang na nagtitinda ng sobraine sa up. haha. a rim which contains 10 kahas. kahas amf. the rim costs 550 php. yes ang laki ng topak ko for buying a whole rim. pero do the math. 55? tipid! it's my happy 2nd ~~28thsary~~ monthsary gift to aj francis :) haha. no offense in the slashing. thanks for coming :)

ahh yes. the girls and i went to the beach

and got DRUNK

syche!

haha. asuh boy. kami? beach? highly unlikely dammnit. stole this from kaye. kaye pahiram. ok ok i command thee to go to kaye's. the kick-ass beach photo was taken by sheen at nicole's debut. i was aj's dakilang proxy. woohoo. i was on the phone half the night. thank goodness for peach hopps. ahhh. memories of the new year with the american prick. peace muhn :)

it's april 29. four years ago i said yes at 1:53 am. wala. memory lang. his name was a perfect description of our relationship. kudos to you for making life awesome to a living hell and back and back. i so wouldn't be who i am right now if it were not for you. is that a good thing? totally :)

and yesterday she realized she really loves him.

sheen is my girlfriend and i want to bring aj excruciating pain

2006-04-18T23:42:00.001+07:00

i went to up today with a goal in mind. to get my non-maj form approved thereby enabling me to enroll for math this summer and moving one step closer to transfering to ID. now i'm lost. afloat once again. i went to the college sec for consultation. i appreciate how he built a foundation of a safety net for me. i have to do the rest. transfering within engg sounds good. hmm. i'm back to a dilapidated square one. i'll be in another department. hopefully. cross your fingers. i'll be in first year again. there's a possibility that miguel and i would be in the same course. we'll be batchmates and he'll do better than me tapos gagatungan niya ko. on second thought. it doesn't sound that good. i'm scared. i don't think i'd be able to do it. my friends are supportive enough. i'm the problem. agh. absentee supportive boyfriend. tama na plastican. si aj na mismo humirit na lalamangan at gagatungan ako ni miguel. so there. so much for supportive. hahahaha. everything really is scaring the shit out of me. i'm lost.

frustrations. stupid taxi driver who over charged and even had the nerve to get cocky. stupid right escalator to southbound. stupid decision making and life living. stupid loving of something not worth it. stupid phonecalls about hearsays backbiting and bitterness which are stupid phonecalls all about other people and never about the people on the ends of the line. i'm getting sick of it. nako ang bakla talaga. but i'm not bored. i'm sick. it's never about what's inside of us.

madali akong magsawa in general. sports. colors. food. clothes. oo lahat na. so if two people are like that. kaboom! it'll eventually burst then shit will fly everywhere. whatever it is. i'm not making sense as always. madali ka magsawa. ako rin. so ano pinapalabas mo? you want to see me play ganun? aynako.

non sense sensical kwento. he went to la union last wednesday. he went up to baguio last sunday. he'll be back in manila next sunday. i'm experiencing emotional battering on the phone and he has no idea. he's away for twelve days and i'm not taking summer classes. he's away enjoying himself eat sleep drink for twelve days yet we won't even go out when he gets back. we share twenty-five cents and he spends tenfold on himself. pautang painom pawaldas pohtah di natakot sa taghirap. my summer is technically as long as his but his is apparently over by may. wtf. you leave for two weeks then question me for not coming then not spend time with me when you get back. sorry i wasn't able to schedule a meeting boss. depende sa date amf. ano ka presidente? then being first lady sucks. part of it's because there's a second to every first. i am so bitter dammnit. point is i'm pissed at aj right now. ulul ka di mo ko bestfriend noh! tama ba namang pagisipan kaming dalawa ng boyfriend mo ng ganun?!

i did give a warning sa phone kanina. moody days are here again. i just wanna go to ID so go fug yourself.

happy april with love

2006-04-16T04:08:00.000+07:00

i should've done this at the start of the month. but i guess now is as good a time as any to let it out. this'll be updated. agh. how heartless of me.

happy birthday.
belated happy birthday to the zero of my ten, mardane :)
belated happy birthday liza (my lola but call her liza) i doubt you'll see this but i did greet you.
belated happy 18th birthday nicole. have an awesome debut :)
belated happy birthday to former else. lol. jehan :)
happy nth birthday claro. you sure don't look the part. good for you :)
a special advanced happy birthday to you ayisse :)
advance happy birthday sithli! i miss you A LOT :)
advance happy birthday jona lu. how young are you?
advance happy birthday to some of the most handsome guys in sandy's world. lol. papa pao. apollo aka apple the gay demigod. waxx the most gorgeous karpintero. kuya onin my familia bulabog tatay. boyfriend kikoy. all so near yet i'm still missing you :)

thanks to everyone who cheered me up and tried to help me out. i love you guys :)

summer love rant. watching the sunset from the beach while drinking with your friends is one of the most wonderful things one could ever experience. remember the unending tides of bliss and purity? this was what i was thinking of when i wrote that. it's close to perfection. agh. if only my hand was there for you to hold. tenententententententen. lol. benta ba? haha. agh. seven more. i miss you. ooh nice thought. i'll jump in the water and kiss the sand when i get there!!!

fb. one of you would eventually read this. agh. seems like a lot of ~~childhood~~ friendships are deteriorating lately. i'm sure i haven't told you this. i'm sorry for that. this seems to be the heartless way to go. i'm to chicken to say it personally. i'm sorry i had to let go :(

something else came to mind. to all the parties involved. maybe some are not guilt-ridden. but i'm still hoping for reconciliations. please. xoxo

i spent easter riding a gorgeous white stallion, paddling a tiny orange canoe, baking my skin under the sun, and running away from an eight year old boy. i didn't watch the gospel of judas as everyone did. i watched meia's masterpieces. i laughed and cried. i'll make you watch them when i get my copies.
happy Easter everyone :)

what?

2006-04-12T07:40:00.000+07:00

i told my parent already. hoorah. mas sinabon niyo pa ko kaysa sa sarili kong nanay. kaya i'm not taking it anymore. one of these days babaliktad din ang mundo. bwahaha. but i'm not sure if that's a good thing. my mom actually laughed. she said i should transfer to statistics because of the demand in banks. blah. she told me to find a course without a math series. i can't believe this. it's like nothing happened. fine arts is out of the question though. so that's goodbye to industrial design. i am now to go course hunting. today pa talaga alis ni aj. malas. enjoy your long vacation :) anyway, it's seven in the morning. i told my mom a few minutes ago. maybe she wasn't in the mood to scold me. nah. her reaction was priceless. time of day had nothing to do with it. why the heck was i in engineering anyway? panalo talaga. i even have the option to transfer universities. now she tells me. why didn't you go to ateneo? ugh. you've brainwashed me for the past 18 years. shift out ka na tapos ano nga pala tawag dun sa puro ge? non-major. ayun na muna. basta i'm taking that guidance exam sa vinzon's. kasi i'm so lost. what are your dreams and aspirations? to rid others of the frustrations i bring. sabay iyak. ang depressed ng dating. bravo. maybe this is just for today. maybe the worst is to come. pero shocking parin eh. the worst was bakit ka nagkakaganyan. that was it. they really have given up. NOT. ganyan daw talaga ang buhay. wow. salamat.

on a not much lighter note, i think i've ~~done~~ said the unthinkable. these things just creep me out. ay, hindi naman. basta, i'm mortified. i was mortified and i was making that laughing-crying sound with the pillow over my face. i was half-trying to kill myself. oops.

enjoy your outing and loong vacation. i'll miss you :)

one of these days talaga. tsss. be careful.

notice the icon.

2006-04-08T06:17:00.000+07:00

it's not dirty. it most certainly isn't little. and what's the use of keeping it a secret?

i am now a nomad. i am not peter nor francis. i am so so so much lower. i may be the lowest even. i am a nomad. i am a sinker. i am a failure. i am shit and i know it. i am a non-major. this goodbye to engineering is for real you dickhead. why did i even look at it? i knew. i was sure. attendance was pokeinangtaengshityanmaddafadderkapiranggotofeveryoneelse's. fuck hope. i was, am and forever will be hopeless. ~~HOPE~~. so what do i do? take it you bitch. just take it. i can't. maybe you could kill me. kill me now. please? i'll take whatever you're taking and maybe sprout out of the ground after a year or two. i am such a rotten mushroom. i am a lower lifeform. not a drop of alcohol after holy week. not a drop. i should suffer suffer suffer. what's left of my insides should be eaten by maggots and carnivorous sponges. to think that mother wants us to go to boracay. maybe i'll let the sun burn me to death. argh. i don't even deserve nice thoughts anymore. ross i can't go with you. i want to but i should be ripped of hands and feet.

dammnit. they can't blame you. i'll gut them if they do.
i wish that i could still spend my summer with you. i hope and wish : (

maybe i'll do it.
i'll enjoy what's left of my days.
maybe kaskade would be my last hurrah.

kasi naman. kung mahal mo ko ibaon mo na ko sa lupa!

natamaan ako sa latest and 3rd from the latest posts ni saab. isama narin natin jan yung kay luis. i guess very sensitive ako about everything right now. lahat ng nakikita ko sa tv or newspaper nirerelate ko sa buhay ko. self-centered talaga ako. rarr. when a part of your life is falling apart, doesn't that make your whole life fall apart too? chain rule or something. it's falling apart. i haven't told them yet. how will i tell them?

click on places for travel rates.

2006-04-05T00:25:00.000+07:00

i hope the beach trips would push thru. *crossesfingers*

there's actually hope for PUERTO GALERA. this is the cheapest we've come across so far. ross and i. the worse planners among us all. and we admit it. think we can do this. retired na kasi yata si toni. toni come back please. anyway. kakayanin siya ng 1500 pax for 3 days and 2 nights etcetera. and kung mas marami. mas mura :)
we could also go to the palace in calatagan care of monica. feeling namin mas cheap yun. kaso ang hirap makipag-coordinate. damn college. rarr. relative nga talaga tong plano na toh.
kung batangas naman. pwedeng mag MATABUNGKAY BEACH RESORT. transpo nalang kailangan. maganda siya dati pero the last time we were there was panahon pa ng ps1. may gaming facilities kasi dun kaya naaalala ko. si marti naglalaro ng marvelvs.capcom.
we could all go to tagaytay and stay at toni's provided that toni is there. duh? so transpo and food nalang kailangan. pwede pa mag highlands to go swimming and shit. kaso nga lang. sino sino kasama dun diba?
may isa pang alternative pero nakakahiya pa sa ngayon kaya wag na muna *winkwink*

hindi ko actually alam kung sino yung kinakausap ko with this post. ang hirap magayos ng hindi mo alam sino yung people involved. ang hirap magayos period. masyado akong malabo for this job. diba ross? :)

in the mean time. inom nalang muna tayo.

reminder:Kaskade is on the 12th at coconut palace and on the 14th at boracay.*crossesfingersforpaolo*

plug: hindi ko kasalanan kung bakit di niyo siya nakikita. hindi ko siya inaogaw or pinagdadamot. haha. ok? parepareho lang tayo *winkwink*

we miss you aj. get well soon :)

april fools weekend :)

2006-04-03T20:23:00.000+07:00

so how was yours?

before anything else. please pray for the soul of Eddie Fanlo. a csa batchmate who got shot.

after turtles and dragons at gaye's. i stayed at the dorm and got sick. that was the 31st. tiesto and hed kandi day. no f*ckin way i wasn't going out. reapeat after me. must refrain from swearing. must refrain from swearing. ayun nadale yata ako ng april fools. bad trip kami pareho nung naghiwalay kami sa katips. anlabo nakakaasar spitebrothersspite.

i was in the middle of nowhere for almost ten minutes. i ended up in a sausage party. i felt so out of place and old. yet i found the experience extremely hilarious. one sandy and five little boys in an suv. what a blast from he past. ehemgooseehem. basta, from the moment i got out of that cab, i didn't lift a finger. bliss. drunk as you were, i love you guys. i thank my prince for making my cold go away. dancing = sweating = galing! i wasn't bored. i wasn't bored. i wasn't bored. the i like you you made me dance with girls was so precious so cute. hahaha. sayang nga lang yung tiesto ~~paolosviptickets~~ dammnit. na april fools yung plano with kash. ang gulo. pseudoaway tuloy with aj.

seriously. i didn't get mad. i guess i just got a little disappointed. because i was able to hold it in yet you couldn't. trust me. drews is no jaipur. they're beyond comparison. i didn't get mad. why? because you showed me something i hadn't seen, in others or in myself, in a very very long time. please don't change that. they're brownie points for you :)

those lips are mine. you hear? olats! lol.

i surprisingly find honesty cute nowadays. cute?

i saw this at market market yesterday. i also found metallic and summer ones. i'm so stupid for not buying them. i'm finding no satisfaction in the green ripcurl flips. damn implusive flipflops buying. kill kill kill. not happy bout them at all. argh. i also got a red arena two-piece. i got them for half-price. i so love them. room for pads. hahaha. sana nga lang may beach na pagbibinyagan. puerto??

i still want them.

we watched basic instincts 2 yesterday. aj's first time watching an R18 film in a movie house. hooray! let's celebrate! i turned blue and almost collapsed from dehydration. come everywhere. hahahaha. walking along makati avenue at 12 in the morning was something alright.

something cookiecookie while we were with the 06 after their gradball. i heard my name being whispered. wtf aj? did you hear that? hi! diba ikaw si sandina? omg. so it is true. your mother did hear it from them. omg. i'm gonna faint again. haha. they were soo nice. they were so cute so young. as young as aj. memories of the other night came flashing back. omg sandy. you're one big pedophile. anyway. no. i didn't feel like a star. ang kapal nun. hahaha. i felt old once again. just like in the beginning of my weekend. hahaha.

a kiss and a hug and it all goes away. shooting stars fly by. silence.

am i that happy now? YES

summer really is here and this i sing to her

How many special people change
How many lives are living strange
Where were you when we were getting high?
Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannon ball
Where were you while we were getting high?

Some day you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Some day you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova
A champagne supernova in the sky

Wake up the dawn and ask her why
A dreamer dreams she never dies
Wipe that tear away now from your eye
Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannon ball
Where were you when we were getting high?

Cause people believe that they're
Gonna get away for the summer
But you and I, we live and die
The world's still spinning round
We don't know why
Why, why, why, why

How many special people change
How many lives are living strange
Where were you when we were getting high?
We were getting high
We were getting high
We were getting high
We were getting high

THIS is not good.

2006-03-31T13:46:00.000+07:00

the status is in a relationship and i'm inexplicably crushed : (

goodbye dear.

but THIS is

salamat gaye, ceej, icy, luis, jai, aj, kaye, miggy, jb, claro, alecco para sa sulit na first of summer.

happy birthday ange
happy birthday freenan

upuan!

new layout

2006-03-29T16:13:00.000+07:00

at pagmumunimuni

who wants to go to iloveyou with me?
maitim talaga ako nigga
who i am hates who i've been - relient K
~~ako pinakaluge ngayon sa amin. sorry :(~~
di ko alam ano class kukunin ko this summer kasi di ko naman alam san ako pupulutin
never ko pa nakita si jo-e kumuha ng diploma
~~2 digits yung score na kailangan ko para maka~~tres sa chem. kaya. pero para san pa?
san ako pupulutin?
gusto ko ang college of engineering. ngayon ko lang narealize.
tapos na ang second sem. di parin binabalik ni wyndsor camera ko.
kung naging kami kaya nagsipag ako?
ewwww
hindi pa naman ako demonyo
nag box-o-rice kami ni kaye kahapon. bonding. belat mo!
~~nasasanay~~ marunong na ko mag-german
love ko si pau. oha.
no. hindi ko gusto si breechy. naguluhan ka dun noh? ~~pilosopo.~~
i want a cheap monday tanktop.
and these for my so far away birthday
yes i know i'm crazy
~~manigas ka jan.~~ sorry pms. ~~jan ka nalang.~~
~~sinong drunkard? ako? ah sige inom kalang jan ha. haha. bhe.~~
i should care more about certain things.
i should care less about certain things. ~~you.~~
~~anlabo natin. medyo lang. anlabo rin ng nararamdaman ko para sayo ngayon.~~
nakakainis yung sandali may gagawin lang ako importante tapos di ka manlang maka-oo wala na agad
miss ko na ang mga barkada
excited na ko bukas
super rave mode ako sa friday. tiesto man o hed kandi. i will dance and no one can stop me!
i will dance :)
baliw yung nanggugulo kila ayisse at zay
~~ang ganda ni dindin. bagong gf ni rocky. ang ganda niya. ogle ogle ogle.~~it's anna. can't say the same.
~~ayusin mo PLEASE~~ thank you :)
~~monthsary ko dapat ngayon. 29~~
wala paring cellphone si name. wala parin akong relo.
naging kami na at lahat di parin tayo naguusap.
~~nagtatampo na ko. mas ok pa yung dati. nung wala pa.~~
can i climb up the ladder?
~~hawakan mo ng maayos. baka lumipad eh.~~
1 month ~~: 2 years~~
tempted
~~walang kwenta~~
congrats sa lahat ng excempted sa kahit anong finals. kahit yung isang mayabang diyan. lol. hug :)
mwah

Am I loud and clear, or am I breaking up?
Am I still your charm, or am I just bad luck?
Are we getting closer, or are we just getting more lost?

I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's ~~compare scars~~,I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand

I've been here so long, I think that it's time to move
The winter's so cold, summer's over too soon
Let's pack our bags and settle down where palm trees grow

I've got some friends, some that I hardly know
But we've had some times, I wouldn't trade for the world
We chase these days down with talks of the places that we will go

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand....until you hold my hand

chem na. sana makaaral pa.
crying. i'm sorry.
i'm sorry

maligayang unang kabuwanan

2006-03-26T03:13:00.000+07:00

technically, 28 days palang daw. nagbibilang. palusot ;)

short ng one hour yung stay. di parin na-beat yung 20-hours record. haha.

here's the story.

i got crazier than usual this weekend. so here it is.

the list (non-obsession celebrity edition)

jimmy fallon
he's so adorable. he's so annoying. he's so funny. he's a hunkhunka burnin love.

tracy morgan
also from snl. he reminds me of jo-e. 'nuff said.

james franco
he is my tristan. oh my prince. haha.

clive owen
sin city got me burning. haha. closer sold it. yis. that accent made me go weeeeeeeeeeeeee.

fred savage
i've ogled him eversince the wonder years. and i wasn't even born yet. haha. those eyes are so tantalizing. meltdown.

daniel craig
my favorite 007. i have a penchant for old english men. haha. they're refined.

chris brown
i love him because he looks like someone we know *biggrin&awink* killer smile beybeh. haha. seryoso. tignan niyo. kamukha niya talaga. pati yung malalim na area between his eyes. oh diba? i have my very own chris brown. his voice it nice too. but his dance is weird. haha. question: ano ba yung ginagawa mo dun sa garahe? bat ka nagsquasquat?dragon ball z ba yun?

this is the non-obsession celebrity edition. i can get more obsessed? hahaha. yes. woah. jake, orlando, colin and russel aren't even there yet.

and again.

happy first monthsary.

thanks for coming ;)

self deprecation

2006-03-23T13:43:00.000+07:00

i seriously think the whole gay thing affects the promiscuous appeal and impression. i can't believe i said that again. after a very long time. promiscuous. hindi talaga siya maganda. hindi lang sa connotation naglilie yung negativity. kadire. cheers to self-deprecation.

~~gay~~. i promise. madali lang naman akong kausapin eh. mahirap nga lang matauhan. all that was needed to be done was to say something. all that had to be said was ang weirdo ng feeling. all that had to be shown was that it would be better this way. kung ikatutuwa bat hindi diba?

naiinis ako sa sarili ko. andito nanaman ako sa stage na nagpapakaungas ako. i mean ang dali kong maagitate and, in turn, madali rin akong mangagitate. nagiging macrobitch ako. rarr. mali yung pagattack ko sa mga situwasyon. Ssss. luis. tama na muna yang lower life forms. baka manuklaw yan eh. grrrrr. yes, i make a lot of sounds. lalo na lately. diba? at bat mo naman kasi ako minomock? eh sa mahilig akong mag animal noises eh. make your own. haha. di ako galit. i find you annoyingly cute. anyway. raised exponentially yung negativity. i know it's because i'm faltering. acad-wise lalo. and naiinsecure ako sa katawan ko kasi summer na. nagvanish na completely yung abs at triceps. iniisip ko kung naiinis parin ba ako sa oras niya. ayoko na mainis. yun nga actually, hindi na ko inis. kahit saang angulo ko tignan. let's say priorities. taas parin eh. so ayos parin. ayos talaga kasi may nalalaman pang white or red wine :)

kailangan ko nga pala mag swimsuit shopping. pag may nakita naman kayong magandang bandeau + boy shorts pasabi sakin. ayos kung white para halatang halata yung pagitim mo. ang sarap. nararamdaman ko na yung coke sa balat ko. sa first week of april ako excited. sorry. utak ko utak sandy parin eh. nagbabago naman gradually for you.

if the post was too tutu for a tutu. then it must really be too much. with all the redundance. kaya sort of binura ko na muna. bakla na yung humirit eh.

tama siya. how much more pag nakilala mo na siya? mas sick ka pa siyempre kaysa sakin ngayon. pero yun lang talaga sakin. i still feel sick. best thing to do is maging sensitive pagdating sa iba. guilty rin ako diyan. so sorry. ibang level na yung needed na mouth shut.

so yan. sanay na kayo na gawain kong asarin at ilaglag sarili ko. wag nalang sana tularan. salamat.

my biggest frustration as of the moment: taeng isang daan yan. cow poop!

mga kasiyahan sa ngayon:

happy birthday Ceej :)

happy birthday Ratet :)

happy birthday Mama :)

mi ultimo adios

2006-03-17T21:45:00.001+07:00

Natuyo ang luhang sa mata'y nunukal,
taas na ang noo't walang kapootan,
walang bakas kunot ng kapighatian
gabahid man dungis niyong kahihiyan.
~jose rizal

no. this is not my proclamation of a hiatus. i am not planning to kill myself either. but hey. yey for sui tendencies. haha. not funny. the apocalypse is coming and its name is chem16. haha. exagg naman sandy. many have ventured and have come back alive. oo rah for chem majors. haha. come on. this is me were talking about. you very well know tomorrow's gonna be a big day. 3rd long exam. need to pass chem16. or else. big day tomorrow for others as well. good luck to all who are gonna take the physics exam 7 hours before the chem exam. what a day it'll be for you. bow down :)

we went to icy's today. ceej,master,kaye,icy and i. we were gonna have a group review. we all know how that went. haha. the myth of the group review. i had fun anyway. didn't we all? haha. raging bitch. fudge. whatthefuck na hirit yan. nice tolibas. halimaw ka talaga.

on a lighter note. we played frisbee yesterday. the boys got to experience the real game. ulimate frisbee. gah. i miss it. i didn't play. asa pa. sheer pink off the shoulder top and flipflops. haha. i still suck. my aim's still really bad and my catching skills are worse. i'm too duling to function. i held the disc less than ten times. you guys are so madaya. haha. alam ko naman kung bakit. i accept. haha. the disc hit me twice. dead on. on the head and on my ankle. daming near miss. the frisbee loves me.

the ateneo kada, ac kada and i were supposed to go to meatshop today. asa chong. i have to prepare for the coming of the end. haha. so kash rescheduled it to the 24th. umm. lalo pang asa. the 24th is. watchasay? fully booked. kash naman. debut ni diane mo yun diba? then there are exams the next week. mom's birthday. and the big basketball. plus we're turning a month old. yey. love love lovee. the meet the rents is scaring the shit out of me though. unplanned is always so much better. haha. love love lovee. thanks for the time. and everything else :)

any ideas? contact me. lol. or him. para masaya.

so. ano? tara na?

SUGOD!

bow worthy

2006-03-14T22:52:00.000+07:00

pag may amats ka nga naman. para kang si the Flash :)

nahwatyourethinking. lol. pero foot. i realized na mahal na mahal ko barkada ko. SOLID. astig. dami ko talaga natututunan pag kasama ko si master. bow worthy. nice camille. bow worthy din ;)

i'm sooooooorry. so sorry. i'll kiss the booboo nalang. and tititigan ko yung isa pa. baka it'll eventually grow legs and walk away. sorry talaga. test amp. gah. there's no such thing as a small circle. i'm soooorry :(

PLEASE SUPPORT!

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This event is brought to you by Black Dog Productions and believe it or not, there is NO COVER CHARGE for this said event. The Razorback tribute concert will be staged at the CHAKIKS' Musicians Bar at City Golf Plaza, Julia Vargas Ave., Ortigas (Infront of Valle Verde 3 Gate). Show will open 10PM of Mar. 17th

Each band participating will perform 3-4 Razorback songs and afterwards, it will be an open jamming with the Razorback boys themselves who will be gracing this event.

happy birthday frauey & janis :)
happy birthday monmon on the 16th <3

last hirit. tighten imaginary leash? alright :)

milestones

2006-03-12T03:30:00.000+07:00

first time ko magyosi dito sa bahay sa makati. look. its emily the strange.

my new ashbin. haha. giveaway sa debut ni mavic. perfect. a tribute to mavic :)

at dahil ninakaw ko lang ang cellphone ni marti na dati'y cellphone ko. tutulungan ko siyang ipagmalaki ang katawan niya. lol.

my brother. the machoboy :)

plug: first time that i drove the whole family home. yes. all five of us are still alive. hoorah :)

hey hey hey. that ain't right.

2006-03-11T01:35:00.000+07:00

this ain't right. don't make your friends reminisce when they're soo far away from their memories. thanks for making me cry meia. thanks for travelling all this way just to show me your creations. i miss you. i miss all of you :)

2006-48668 CAMBRI, CELSO JR TANAQUIN LOS BANOS BS FOOD TECHNOLOGY
this ain't right because he should be in diliman. with us. who want him. lol:)

: int time=0;/*morning na eh*/
if(sandy==online && sheen==online && aj==asleep)
sheen==morning_buddy;

else
aj==morning_buddy;

Sandy: good luck sa inyong lahat sa mga mpoy niyo :)
Patrick: bat ngyn lang nya nasumbat syo yan?
Sandy: hindi naman. lagi namin napaguusapan. pero exagg yung kagabi. parang inuna ko pa yung geog sa math.
Sandy: eto yung tunay na. nasabi ko talaga sa sarili ko "why am i here? what am i doing?"
Patrick: ok lang yan
Patrick: he cares :)
Sandy: i know. pero ang pangit. mas may care pa siya kaysa sakin...para akong batang kailangan pa bantayan pagsabihan at alagaan.
Patrick: ahahah
Patrick: bakit, ndi ba?
Sandy: leche. ayoko na ng ganun. gusto ko inaalagaan ko rin siya. pantay dapat.
Patrick: e d alagaan mo rin.

this ain't right because sandy cheeks and patrick star are speaking in tagalog. lol. but seriously this ain't right. i have absolutely no reason to screw up. i have no reason not to go to class. you're right. why don't i come to school early? well. i didn't have you then. but that is not at all acceptable. you're so right to feel the way you do about my standing. all of you are. i'm so unreasonable. i'm less than a bum. foot. i'm so sorry for bringing you more frustrations than you already have. i may be less than a bum but i'm ~~more than just a~~ your girl. and for that i will be a better person on my own for you. i will care for and about me as you do or even more. i will care for you as you care for me or even more. i will kiss the pain away. i will take the scars and make you forget. i will cover your ears when i say something bad. i will suck the pride in and listen. i will cover your eyes and kiss them when they're tired. i will hug you when you're aching and tell you how good you still look even when you feel so sick. i will let you fish freely. i will tell you the truth. i will try not to expect. i will be there for you. i won't do what they did. i will see what you're trying to show me. i love that you care. i don't want you to stop. diretso. kung ano ginagawa mo para sakin gagawin ko rin para sayo. gusto ko mabasa mo toh habang nagaaral ako ng math.no lol.seryoso.kaya natin toh.

shit.

2006-03-08T10:21:00.000+07:00

"Ladies, I should mention that most bad things you have heard about frat boys are true. I pray every day that all of my children will be boys. It is just too damned hard to be a girl. Guys care even less about you than you think."

see? told you soo.

tama na. i'm facing reality. i love you both.
love love love boyf. love love beefy.

killer smile

2006-03-07T20:05:00.000+07:00

well well well. we meet again. i thought i escaped your clutches. you held me for four years. i almost died. but i think i wanted to die in your arms anyway. so i guess that's ok. but still. why are you here? why did you follow me when you knew that i didn't want to cry anymore? don't make excuses. i don't care if you came in a different form. i don't care if you're more caring or more sensual. you're still gonna hurt me. you know it. i know it. fuck you saddist or masochist or whatever you are. but i can't deny that i missed you. i missed the near death experiences. i missed the adrenaline rush. gah. your like chocolate. you're my chocolate death. no. you're my chocolate gudang death. i think you're far more deadly now. you've come with a better package. argh. it's happening. dicks before chicks. what happened to prioritizing? and now they tell me? you've learned how to love. you now give your all. so contradictory to what you've always shown me. gah. i'm taunted by ross. like joey. i have to nod to that. you see? so fast. so fast. i'm already crying. you're still fast. you still got it. damn those teeth. they shine. those eyes. they sparkle. damn you. i love you.

freaky me. i read his testimonials a while ago. and now i feel this. it's not mutual anymore. i don't deserve you. you whom they say is. malakas magfish. totoong tao. magaling magbasketball. athletic. dota god. econ master. physics dude. nakagraduate nang di nagaaral. frank. passive aggressive. mabait. gentleman. totoo magmahal. gago. ahas. deep deep thinker. contemplative. sentimental. angas. tigas. chickboy. close up smile. pogi. malambing. boy pakisama. poetic. romantic. seryoso. makulit. doormat. maCR. mas vain pa sa babae. you're the extremes. you're everything. affiliated pa ngayon. i wish i could see everything they're saying. i love every bit of it. of you. maganda. masama. lahat. damn you. i love you.

what goes up must come down. but we can defy that naman diba? we did once. we can do it again :)

sorry. malabo ako. kinakausap ko sarili ko.

happy birthday isobel :)

2006-03-04T00:00:00.000+07:00

weeee! you're 19 and i love you dear!

fashizzle! it's march! it's hot! it's summertime! panahon nanaman ng kasabawan! let's put our beer goggles on and have some summer soup! tara na sa beach :) i miss my water babies! mfy! i miss the tag house! daan tayong tagaytay for some sheperds' pie from Bag o' Beans! jellO shots! jellO shots! jellO shots! tan lines woohoo! six packs woopwoop! maligo tayo sa coke at magpakaitim! yis!

badtrip nga lang may pasok this april. oh well :)

2006-03-02T23:59:00.000+07:00

so we all know about this:

january 22
pacman's victory
after 13 days
february4
ultra stampede
after 13 days
february 17
southern leyte landslide
after 13 days
march 2
???
please pray

so people prayed? good.
we should all do this together all the time.
not just in times when we're in need of His help.
and not during times we're afraid of superstitions and crazy coincidences.

today wasn't that bad. some not so good things and one very bad thought.
good thing di ako nakaencounter ng bad entities. db. haha. our math teacher walked out on us. she got paysed because we were inconsiderate, i guess. a cellphone rang in class. she said some stuff. she drew the graphs of tan,cot,csc,sec on the board ,threw the chalk and left. And because of that i read leithold. sa mcdo. with ceej and luis. yis :) then, spent happy time. nagpakalulon nanaman kami sa bisyo. each other,bs and drews.weird namin. haha. mas ok maging freeloader kaysa maging mukhang pera. we're priceless. awww. i love it when we can hear each other breathing. i love how we can hangout til curfew and still manage to talk on the phone til the weeee hours. then sabay makakatulog sa phone. haha. anlabo. basta. weeeeeeee :)

why?

2006-03-01T01:23:00.000+07:00

i'm sorry i'm questioning You but why him of all people? why him?
why do You let bad things happen to good people?
he might not be with You because of what happened.
why would You not want him to be with You? why? why? why?
he loves You so much. he loves You. why him? :'(

oh. yeah. umm. i love taylor hicks. wurd. but i doo.

hmm. masama ba ako?

2006-02-26T03:13:00.000+07:00

ooh. look at the time. nice. pero di yan yung saktong oras at date ngayon. haha.

SandyAJ
0 months old

di kailangan sabihin o ihayag sa sangkatauhan.
pero ulul. wala akong pake. haha. actually meron. but still.
masaya eh. WAM. whatamonth. WAW. whataweek. blurr.
pero sa mundo natin. mabagal ang oras.
WAW. whataweek. end. yun na yun :)

i love you alexis jerome martinez tolibas.

haay. natunaw na si puso ko. haha. heart juice. yumm. deadbull. haha :)
wag nalang daan daanan itong post ha. puhlease. aryt? aryt. kantahan nalang tayo.

It never even crossed my mind
That I would fall in love with you
You were always there behind me
But I never looked that way

Friends are friends I looked at them
Nothing more & nothing less
Familiar things you say & do
Seems so strange its not like you

Funny things that made me laugh
Is when I think about the past
I never saw it coming
When I turned around & you were there

I learned today
That I need you more each day
Grab on to you
Don’t ever let go

It came over me in a rush
when I realized that i love you so much
that sometimes i cry
but I cant tell you
why I feel what i feel inside

how I try to express
whats been troublin' my mind
but still I cant find the words
but I know that somethings got a hold of me

baby someday ill find a way to say
just what you mean to me
but if that day never comes along
and you dont hear this song
i guess you'll never know

it came over me in a rush
when I realized that i love you so much
that sometimes i cry
but I cant tell you
why I feel what i feel inside

and when i say inside I mean deep
you fill my soul
and thats something I cant explain
its over me.

talaga lang ah? naghahamon ka pa. haha. next time na yung alpahabet. version ko. teehee :)

plug: i'm sorry i seem so apathetic to our country's current state, or everything else that's going on around us for that matter. i'm not that absorbed with my own love/life. it just seems that way. i, head to heart to soul, am actually greatly affected. what with my lolo getting arrested and my other lolo wanting to choke his ex-friend, the general and activist mum and dad obsessing over 1017 and how gma is wasting what they fought for during their time and the family talking about hiding us, the kids, yet again, i'm just trying to cope with it all. leche. it's martial law/dekada70/orapronobis all over again all at once. school is crazy. home is crazy. leche yung kababawan ng rason for the suspension of classes. nagsilabasan lang sandali yung mga jarhead from their barrax. papansin. nagkagulo pa tuloy sa bahay sa fort. leche. mababaliw ka kung ikaw ako. but i know i'm one of the least unfortunate. alam ko lahat tayo nababaliw na. i just pray for all this to end. no more deaths. no more war. spread the love. thanks aj for being with me through all this ruckus :)

plugplug: banned si aj sa lajave room. banned ang guys sa lajave room. lol. bawal naman talaga kahit bakla pa. haha. salamat sa mga bumatok sakin para matauhan ako. figuratively speaking. salamat ulit sheen at wamar at ceej. miss ko na kayo. lahat kayo. eurostar na tayo 28!

peace all :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY REMIKA AND DREA :)

2006-02-22T22:35:00.000+07:00

today, i let go of the past and the future. haha. mag fam at jayn nalang kayo please ;)
i kissed ~~commitment~~ goodbye.
hello pihsnoitaler ~~nepo~~.
this is ~~going to be~~ sooo confusing.
this going to be FUN :)

kung san ka masaya. bahala ka. talaga!
i shall teach thee my ways.
kahit gaguhan pa yung labas.
it's that lifestyle once again.
yehes. namiss ko toh.

i had a nightmare. i told you i loved you. you said aylabyoto.
gah. buti pa si dream sandy tinake yung risk.
i need a little more guts or eq or something.
naubos ko na lahat sa pagsabi sa kanila. still friends? ofcourse :)
sa pagsabi sa kanya.

plug: nasa rally ka ba? bat wala? i was really hoping you were there. sabi sakin ng tatay kong aktibista. ang sweet sweet talaga ni lito :)

plugplug: dapat hindi naghahanap ng malupit na love song. kasi matatauhan ka lang. fcuk.

GOODBYE - Juana

Didn't mean to hurt you badly
Don't think that I am fooling around with you
So sorry for the time you've wasted on me
So sorry for the things that you went through
But I know that the problem's within me
You're so nice but your love don't deserve me
Or maybe I'm just so scared to fall in love again

I can still remember the days
So many times, I've been hurt
So much trust I put on a relationship
So much suffering I got and the pain still remain
Know I like you but I don't wanna take the risk
So confused and I don't know how to deal with it
Need some time for awhile before I give my heart away

Don't say goodbye
Don't say goodbye
I need some time for awhile before I give my heart away

Now, I know I wasn't thinking before
That's why I'm always ending up with Mr. Wrong
Learning from the past, don't wanna make a mistake
You could be Mr. Right or could be a fake
You know I like you but I don't wanna take the risk
So confused and I don't know how to deal with it
Need some time for awhile before I give my heart away

repost para lang maalala ko ang araw na ito

2006-02-21T23:45:00.000+07:00

i'm quitting all the drama.
i'm gonna stick with you.
i enjoy everything we do, no matter what.
you make me appreciate the simple things in life.
the highest concentration of my every teardrop is you.
you make life more meaningful.
you've always made me happy.
you are the smile on my face :)
just so you know

i love you.

TODAY WE COMMEMORATE THE DEATH OF
PROF. DOMINADOR ILIO BE'37 CE'39 GE '39
GOD BLESS HIS BEAUTIFUL SOUL.
ENJOY PO KAYO DIYAN SA LANGIT ;)

it's only monday and it's not looking so good.

2006-02-20T23:25:00.000+07:00

i've been having attendance problems in my subjects. well, i've been having attendance problems since highschool, but who cares, really? actually, i should. and surprisingly my friends give more of a damn than i do. thanks :) anyway, i should really give a damn. damnit. my future depends on it. an instuctor asked me today if i was gonna drop her subject because i used up all my cuts already. she told me that she wouldn't accept me if i still wouldn't attend her class. like duh?? that's common sense. i'm not cutting any subject from this day on. or until the semester ends. ok? ok. so there. she gives me a chocolate bar as some sort of consolation. wtf?? ano ako bata? as if she was saying. oh eto chocolate smile ka na ha. gah. what a way to start your day, or week for that matter. i found myself pouring my heart out at ten in the morning, sitting on a bench, puffing a stick and pinching his "triceps". haha. wow. and as if that wasn't enough. over dinner, i found myself being judged by my egotistic cousin. we ended up writing down all our past subjects and their corresponding grades. leche. parepareho lang kaming gago. mana mana lang talaga yan. our girl friend even suggested that we shift to tourism next sem. aynako. kung magshishift siya ng ie di na ko lilipat noh. haha. laki ulo :) but wait! there's more. we just had to talk about my lovelife. apparently, it's a must now. wow. just because you see me with them it means something already. assume. bat ba lagi nalang pinaguusapan yung puso ko. yung rep ko. yung tingin ng iba. potah. di ko man kaya magisa. kaya ko naman mag-isa. look at rocky. hello? i loved the guy for four long years. i know how to love. i love. lech. a whole day of self realization. oo rah.

what now? i'm ok now. buti nalang nandiyan ka. thanks. for putting a smile on my face. for always ::hugsyoutight::

eto malupet na hirit :)

sa isang malawak na karagatan
may isang salbabidang nakalutang
ngunit dahil sa isang unos
ang salbabida'y nabutasan
at upang ang hangi'y di maubsan
ang nasabing butas ay tinapalan ng bubblegum
makalipas ang panahon
may isang taong dumating
itinapon ang bubblegum
at ang butas ay sinulsi
ganyan ang pagibig dito sating mundo
pagdating ng taong hinahanaphanap mo
ang taong nasa puso sa puso'y isasantabi mo
at ang taong ito'y lubos na magdaramdam
maiisip sa sarili na siya'y walang karapatan
dahil siya'y isang bubblegum
na panakip butas lamang :(

and it keeps on melting

2006-02-20T03:09:00.000+07:00

awwww

that's soo sweet

i'm soo touched

::deep breath::thank you::cutesy voice::bats eyelashes::mwah::

thank you lovees for sending your loves and misses.
i love and miss you too. soo much. i will visit you you and you.

i guess valentines isn't over yet. teehee.
miggy love. sandy needs to see you asap :)

lovees. til end of february love month nalang yung eurostar carnivale :(

hugs&kisses,

thegirlwhooughttobeslappedforbeingstuckonvalentinesdayforaweek

aaahh. LOVE.

2006-02-15T22:51:00.000+07:00

3 valentines days.

what took you so long?

wow. lucky lucky you. SCORE :)

chocolates and flowers and kisses and hugs and isaw and fishballs and c2 and spirits and nuggets and pancit and bottles and corned beef and adobo and rice and trikes and jeeps and games and stories and bonding and mcdonalds and friends and stars and the sunken garden and all of UP and katipunan and my dorm and everything and more and lovees are love.

i'm on a love high. i'm on a HIGH and all i can feel is bliss :) :) :)

well, i can feel mentos on my ears, but that's another story.

i realized na wala naman yan sa lugar or sa tao. nasa akin lang yan. in the middle of nowhere i will find something SPECIAL to love :)

thanks ceej, icy, gaye, carla, kaye, ayisse, am, ange, ching, camille, kelly clarkson, enzo, mico, danjo, frank, martin, mark, mike, luis, gino, sheen, jehan, aj, koy, joe for being my valentinesss.

i love you.

SINGLES-NIGHT-OUT = INUMAN :)

2006-02-12T19:57:00.000+07:00

Sandina --

[noun]:

A person who is constantly high

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

to be continued. this week na tol! bwahahaha!

today deserves an entry because toni rose piñero rode a jeepney four times today. 2 up campus, 1 katipunan and an ikot to be exact. woohoo. to up and back. haha. partida naka-flowy mini pa siya. i congratulate you for completing your AB amarunongnakomagcommute degree. yis!

seriously, i think this whole weekend deserves an entry. it's the first time ever, that i spent the weekend at the dorm. i didn't go home last friday, nor did i drink, like i usually do, because we were having our second long exam in chem16, saturday. a BIG up to my sister for reviewing me. hihi.

for you, i wish this week would end quickly. for me, i wish this week would last forever. for everyone, i wish tuesday would be a blast.
VALENTINES HUG FOR EVERYONE :)

i was supposed to go to my geog fieldtrip right after my exam,but decided not to. i wasn't in the mood to go semi-camping, especially without any sleep from the previous night. actually, if we were going spellunking, hiking or climbing, i would've gone, with or without sleep. gah. thinking of the mountains makes me miss rocky. resist. resist. anyway, i could've gone home to makati nalang, but again decided not to. i stayed sa tindahan ni ate marivic for a while. i waited for the boys to leave for the bus station. they were going to aklan for a wake. God Bless his soul -_- . luigi wanted to stuff me in his bag. asa. no laguna or aklan for me so i stayed one more night so that i could accompany toni in watching the uaap judo games at CHK the next day, today, sunday.

gah. i just wanted to know how it felt like to stay the weekend and experience even more "freedom". i shouldn't have stayed over. i feel sad now. i feel bad because i've turned my house into a laundromat. i go home to have my dirty clothes washed and go out with new clean ones. i don't want this. well, i used to, but now, i don't. oo. nakokonsiyenya ako. i'm "living on my own" and i've excluded myself from the family. they haven't been going to mass, or even the mall, together because of my absence. gah. i wanna love them a lot again. i miss my superlover self, kahit ba superhater ako at the same time.

so anyway, sunday, today was a long day. basta "nanuod" kami ng judo sa CHK. may representative from every school. haha. va for ateneo. monica and toni for dlsu. me for up. galing. haha. ako lang samin yung hindi required. pero para sa kaibigan. sige. long story short. champion ang admu. i'm home already <3 and there's blue skies gum stuck on my ass (pantaloon). haha. sayang wala ako sa katipunan para sa inyo ngayon. 5 na kasi ako nakauwi eh :(

i love you. sorry over cliched na yung phrase from me. mahilig ako magmahal eh.

lovees, eurostar carnivale trip is TBA :)

2006-02-11T20:02:00.000+07:00

omg. this says it all.

i've been bitten by the giddylovebug and it has superglued itself to me. poor bug.

toby: so you love more than one guy
Sandina: i have no idea
Sandina: ewan
toby: But you love 1 guy
Sandina: wait
Sandina: hmmm
Sandina: YES
toby: you dont want to say that he loves you
toby: and you dont wanna let him know you love him?

teehee. kids nowadays. don't be in a hurry. enjoy your youth. lola?

the list is now in the archives.
bwahahaha. links for the persistent ::wink::

friendship shouldn't be a lot of work - nicole ritchie

2006-02-06T22:59:00.000+07:00

the back pose.toni's so red.she's so basag na.haha.ang walang kamatayang MFY ++

i'm glad that, during the weekend, i got a break from this emotional slump i've been having. i've been missing sanago and makati, not necessarily my house, so much, that i cried last thursday. i missed how easy life there was and how i easily got away with my happy-go-lucky ways. i miss my loved ones most of all ofcourse. i miss mfy, amazing friends, familia bulabog. i even miss my stinky little brother, Marti. and yes, no doubt, i miss rocky. valentine's day?

i missed all the bar-hopping we used to do. with jan's absence, we kinda took a break from it and, eventually, lost the will to do it. gah. i felt so deprived of dancing here in qc that i danced til dawn at gb. i'm glad temple's still there for me. it's just sad that greenbelt is slowly dying. the fort is the new "it" place. i live there yet i'm miles away from it. crap. cowpoop.

who did i sleep in between of? ah. jc and cheska. sarap sobra. i missed that. trying to sleeping at five in the morning. trying to fit the twelve of us on a single bed. snuggling and cuddling and snoring and camwhoring. no dull moments. sisters and brothers for life. kakaiyak sa tuwa :)

ayan. that's what i miss. i super miss my loved ones. haha. wala lang. naisip ko lang. kung umuuwi parin kaya ako sa makati, kami na kaya ni joey? lol. sobrang patawa. pero malaki ang possibilities. anyway. it's not that i don't love my friends here. i'm not deprived of people to love. there's an abundance of lovely people to love here. maybe that's my problem right now.

i wish things would be better. but, i can't compromise who i am.
term ni aj...coboy...tama ba? pero kikay din. basta yun. yun ako eh. sorry. i grew up that way. zoids!wohoo!

hay. all i'm sure of right now is I LOVE YOU ALL, ALWAYS :'(

ay. plug. to master luis, thanks in advance :P

HUBBABERDEI MIKE AND CAMILLE :)

2006-02-04T00:06:00.000+07:00

dude, i wasn't faking it. lol.

i'm happy but sad.

2006-02-01T20:10:00.000+07:00

damn i hate ambiguity.

can you be with one person for 20 hours straight?
what if this person hasn't changed clothes or taken a bath?
if you have fun, then why not, right?
salamat kapatid :)

can you stand a person who assumes you like him?
should you agree with others who say it's being big-headed?
if it is true, then why get offended, right?
there will be no chasing. just replacing :) tell me something i don't know.

can you stand yourself when you get yourself hyped up for nothing?
don't you just hate it when, even false hope, isn't given to you?
you shouldn't torture yourself day-to-day with uncertainty, right?
if only it's that easy to open your eyes and wake up from a heavenly dream :)

can you just go with the flow for a change?
shouldn't we all just recognize what blessings the things we already have are?
answers you're looking for are often just staring you in the face, right?
you shouldn't be a slave to your heart. you should coexist :)

"if two past lovers remain friends; it's either they are still inlove
or never were."

whatthefuck? why now? it's making me wonder what i am, what you are, what you were, what we are, what we were, what you and i will be. where do we stand in telescopy? why are there so many things against us? why does taboo exist? i'm asking myself if you're wondering too. are you wondering too? are you aware of what you make me feel? drama. ick. avril lavigne. haha. pero umiiyak ako.

stop. just take my hand and hold me close. let's face this world together :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KRISTIA VELOSO :)
we will all be here and there for you.
don't fret. we love you.

you make me happy :)

2006-01-30T20:34:00.000+07:00

sorry for being dramatic the other day.

the middle toenail of my right foot died. today. rest in peace -_-

i'm ok now.
i'm actually happy because he's going to be my brother next year.
haha. that's so malabo. but it's true.
i'm excited.

i swear. even without the booze.
tomorrow's gonna be the day.
i'm so tired of all these depressive events.
i'm tired of waiting.
you're gonna be my brother and you have no choice. haha.

i'm so happy i have all of you.
i love you all :)

sandy. kinilig. yihee.

"drink. enjoy. flirt"

2006-01-25T22:20:00.000+07:00

that's a spoiler from the 3rd season of the OC.
Thank you maan for every episode of heaven on earth :)

i just finished taking a good, long, warm bath. Ang sarap.
i felt really stinky and "stressed out" na kasi. haha. kapal.
well, not the stinky part. sweat it out on a funny fun day :)

we had the 2nd am shoot today. i was late. what do you expect? so sorry :(
it was at phan. super wacky sana 'cause it was at up, home of the whacked. haha.
but am's kinda sick today. hope you feel better dear.
we headed to katips after, where kaye buried me. with her hirits. haha. conyotic ah.

people came and went. and a stick of black bat disintegrated. yeah boi! one lang!
kaye and i decided to have a spa day :)
pink max is awesome. money well spent noh kaye?
a hundred and fifty pesos for nail art on all your ten fingers.
it's where mico's used to be. i'm not inis anymore that mico's closed. haha.
i just had my fingernails cleaned.
hangnails from last week gave me lots of booboos na kasi. nabalatan. ick. haha.

i didn't get the toesies done 'cause it'd be stupid since i was going jogging after.
so i went to moro na. hindi ako nang-indian. yeah boi :)
i think i did more laps than you did, johnnyboy. haha.
two ovals yesterday and that many laps today. my legs hurt like shit ah.
but we ate at jabee. so did all that stuff count? haha. i have hopes for you johnny.

i can't take it that i'm still stuck on how rocky looks.
of all the uaap players there, i looked for tenorio, who had his last season na.
bat nagtaka ka pa john? i tend to like short-ish guys with six packs, killer-smiles and large-ish heads and noses. i realized that #7 shouldn't be in the list na. so there. haha.

having the pedi done after jogging was a great idea.
sarap. footsie massage. so relaxing.
panalo na sana kaso biglang umulan. wow. but it's okay since i just had them cleaned.
haha. i've lost my fervency for eye-catching stuff na. i think.
pero asuh. laki ko paring pansinin eh. haha. see previous entry. haha. right?

i'm trying to "detoxify" my being. wag na humirit, since it's only trying.
so i'll do my prelab na. good night. i love you. mwah.

shameless plug: my dear 2 faggots. fair niyo sa friday. di ka nagsasabi faggot #1. boo. haha. pax :)

Pang-masa

2006-01-21T11:47:00.000+07:00

a term coined by a friend to describe her/our God-given "aura".
It's truck-drivers-waiters-doms-pervs-posers galore.
It's sad and unfortunate, but there is no use in denying it.
All we can do is think above it.
How is that?
Treat each other with the respect we deserve.
Give compliments all the time, even if they're in the form of jokes :)
Watch each other's backs.
All for one and one for all. I love you guys :)

Yeah yeah. What the fuck am I talking about?

Situation A:
It was around 7pm and M,A,C,K,S were walking along E.A. St.
They were going to LJGR from HS to wait for C,A.
It was a not-so-short walk, but they should've just ridden a trike.
From the opposite direction, a man riding a bicycle passed them by.
"I love you."
S shreiked. She covered her face and wanted to cry.
The man was old. No, he was ancient. He was ugly and could be considered their house boy/lolo already.
There was one common thing that was going through C,S,K's head.
"The nerve of that man."
A made a joke about it, but they didn't feel any better.
It just aggravated how sucky it was to be that, pang-masa.
From their memories came Situation B.

Situation B:
Girl decided to eat chicken.
While waiting for her chicken, a waiter came up to her.
"Where do you live?"
"In (name of place here)"
"That's so far. Can I have your number?"
"Ugh. NO."
Once again. The nerve of that man.
The girl is too rich,smart and pretty for him.
She is a customer.
She will never eat in that establishment ever again.

You might be saying,

"It's ok sometimes. You get compliments AND free gravy. Freebies! Who wouldn't like that?"

I don't mean to offend anyone or make anyone feel horrible. I know it happens to almost all of us. I am not a special case. And now we sing...

"You are not alone. I am here with you...you are not. you are not." -Michael ~~Jordan~~ Jackson :)

Think woman think. Don't settle for pang-masa.

Itaas ang bandera ng kababaihan! Join UP Babaylan!
hahahaha. Sorry. I'm just kidding :)

WELCOME TO THE SUCK

2006-01-20T00:12:00.000+07:00

get ready to hear this a lot this year. this will burry all that "that's hott" crap. it's substantial, frank and down-right straight-to-the point, of life, that is. haha :)

gah. i can't think of anything to say that would give justice to one of the best, if not THE BEST, films of the year, JARHEAD. I mean, fine, Spielberg's Munich is showing this year and will be tackling political issues as well, but does it have THIS?

i think not. haha. i'm kidding. watch the movie. watch his naked ass video.

don't think i took this movie lightly.
it dealt with the issues of war,love,life,brotherhood,nationalism and everything else that matters. All these were shown with so much vulgarity, frankness and reality that, even the self-righteous, would choke on their own words. Some people really would die to kill. And your girlfriend really is doing it with your brother.

Explicit with a capital E, it perfectly showed how fucked up life is.
No Pretentions. No Censorship. with regards to the truth, that is. Hello??
In the desert, you can only be yourself. Drive yourself up the not-existent wall, and still, you are and can only be - yourself.

You're in the suck! Face it!

oh, and the cinematography, pure genius. It was like experiencing heaven and hell, or heaven in hell, at the same time. I quote maan. "Feeling ko mananalo nga yan ng Oscar for best cinematography..." Never did I think that I would ever, even remotely, consider going to sunny Saudi Arabia. And that's not thinking of Jake Gyllenhaal yet!

Jake Gyllenhaal. Swoff. Tony.
I have to admit; I drooled. I'm obsessed. gah. so hot. tongue tied. in shit. still hot. under the desert sun. sizzling. gah. so tongue tied. an angel. an ass. a friend. a boyfriend. a nerd. a musician. i'm spoiling it for you. haha. He'll make you laugh your brains out, cry your heart out, jump for joy, cringe in pain. He's everything :)

As i told Am, I laugh, cried, daydreamed, cringed, cussed, hated and loved, all at the same time :)

Comedy. Action. Gore. Stupidity. Reality. Drama. Hottie-studded.
Jarhead was full of it, the shit, the dope, the everything.

OO-RAH!

LET'S PARTY GIRLS!

2006-01-18T14:48:00.000+07:00

notice the ascending order of the opening of the mouths. lol. the am shoot.

walangmaisipnacollectivename/s. ~~tribu~~ drew's this friday. or something. haha:)

oh. we "partied" alright. it wasn't a mess. it was just messy. haha. I love you guys. mwah!

Pick a band/artist/album + Answer using only titles of their songs:
dashboard confessional

Are you male or female:
Hey Girl, For Justin

Describe yourself:
The Best Deceptions, Age Six Racer, This Ruined Puzzle

How do some people feel about you:
Ghost of a Good Thing, Am I Missing, The Brilliant Dance, Turpentine Chaser

How do you feel about yourself:
So impossible, Rapid Hope Loss, Drowning

Describe your ex:
Screaming Infidelities, This Bitter Pill, Hold On

Describe your views on your significant other or crush:
For You to Notice, So Beautiful

Describe what you want:
Morning Calls, Shirts and Gloves, Saints and Sailors

Describe how you live:
If You Can't Leave It Be, The Good Fight, Bend and Not Break

Describe how you love:
As Lovers Go, Hands Down, So Long So Long

Share a few words of wisdom:
Remember to Breathe, Carve Your Heart Out Yourself

sorry the answers are so sad. it's emo afterall.
i'd be so happy if they had a song entitled sunshine :)

ease the pain. if any :)

2006-01-17T16:51:00.000+07:00

lately, i've been obsessing over fall out boy.
this particular gag video makes me laugh so hard.
it's my only glee at the moment, how tragic. haha :)

meia,ross and i watched it together once.
meia said i showed signs of depression. or something :)
i think i'm just being emo.

the song's actually quite deep.

SUGAR WE'RE GOING DOWN

Am I more than you bargained for yet
I've been dying to tell you anything you want to hear
Cause that's just who I am this week
Lie in the grass, next to the mausoleum
I'm just a notch in your bedpost
But you're just a line in a song
(A notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song)

Drop a heart, break a name
We're always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team

We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it
[x2]

Is this more than you bargained for yet
Oh don't mind me I'm watching you two from the closet
Wishing to be the friction in your jeans
Isn't it messed up how I'm just dying to be him
I'm just a notch in your bedpost
But you're just a line in a song
(Notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song)

Drop a heart, break a name
We're always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team

We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it
[x2]

Down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it

We're going down, down in an earlier round (Take aim at myself)
And Sugar, we're going down swinging (Take back what you said)
I'll be your number one with a bullet (Take aim at myself)
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it

We're going down, down (down, down)
Down, down (down, down)
We're going down, down (down, down)
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it

We're going down, down in an earlier round (Take aim at myself)
And Sugar, we're going down swinging (Take back what you said)
I'll be your number one with a bullet (Take aim at myself)
A loaded God complex,cock it and pull it.

I don't have a God complex. gah.
I know people who do. It's fine.
I still love them for ALL that they are.
I am no self-righteous bastard. hah.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANNINE DU MACACHOR
I MISS AND LOVE YOU SO MUCH

i'm the shite. uh-huh uh-huh.

2006-01-12T17:09:00.000+07:00

today wasn't a kilig day. wtf are kilig days noh? haha.
it wasn't even a good day all-in-all.
but i'm not the sad type of person. paranoid,yes. pessimistic,no.
so what type of person are you? the type that's full of it :)
there were cutesy parts of my day and that's enough to make me smile :)

i missed two classes today. way to go ms. new year's resolution.
i didn't know how i would go to up kasi. i only had 22 pesos left this morning.
i prepped for my third class nalang. i called tita precy for 40 pesos load.
i then rode a jeep from katips to the up-balara gate.
i took another jeep and went down near engg and walked to cal from there.
i bumped into enzo and borrowed some moolah.
i went to my class. 0 energy.
i stopped by the itlugan to get a half-long. fencer was there. he was the only crushee i saw today.
i went to my lab and watched myself leech off my lab partner. i'm soo sorry.
while the fudgeroo was discussing the 567postlabs, i copied them off my partner's.
yes. harap harapan. garapalan. buti nalang nasasagot ko yung mga tanong nung recitation.
i finished all three postlabs during the lab period. crap. i'm still such a slacker. where's the greatly anticipated change?
i went to casaa. i didn't see any of my gal pals today. except for ange pala.
i stayed with the wise ass boys for a while. haha.
then i called enzo.

msri.
ah ok.
Nsri.
ikaw?
casaa...
daanan ka namin sa itlugan.
ok.
bye."

"san yung Nsri?
hah? ano yun?
diba sa mbb yun?
ang layo naman.
san yung Nsri?
baka msri. dun yun sa...
taenang nsri yan. haha.
sorry. binggi. yun yung narinig ko eh."

and because i'm not the sad type. bentang benta na sakin yan. hahaha :)
so i went to the itlugan nalang. not leaving casaa without some perverted bullcrap from joba. haha.
we passed through the as walk+chem building.

"ui nakwento ko na ba sayo?
uh.alin?hindi.
oh nakwento ko na yata sayo.
ay hindi nga eh.
diba yung nakasalubong natin yung __ ko sa __. dun palang sabi ko na sa sarili ko.
nako. tatanungin ako niyan mamaya.
tapos akala ko nakatakas na ko.
biglang tinawag ako ng __ ko.
tinanong kung sino yung __?
sinabi pala nung __ ko sa kanya.
ahahahaha. sayang noh? maling tao. (hindi mo yata na-gets.) blah. blah. blah.
bakit ganon pag babae? pag lalaki naman di tinatanong.
haha. gusto mo itanong sayo pag lalaki? ang lala mo. haha."

and once again, because i'm not the sad type of person. bentang-benta parin sakin.hahaha :)
ange was there at the itlugan. kain kain muna kami.
i was calling kaycoo.
then she texted me.

"___ 's pooping pa."

that was so adorable and funny :)
so they fetched me na sa itlugan and we went to katips.
everyone's so moohlahless nowadays. haay. haha.
i think we were at wok when enzo said this.

"hinahanap ka nila #7 yesterday."

i said my pa-humble and kunwari-hindi-kinikilig replies.
but that reaaaaaaaaaalllllly made my day :)haha.
especially since i've been reading his blog kahit masakit sa mata. haha.
it's my duddy's birthday today.
i thought they were going here for dinner.
the celebration was at the house in makati na.
so i decide to go there nalang coz i love my duddy muchmuch.
i text my gr.6 crush to ask if he could accompany me to makati.
fetch nalang daw niya ko sa dorm ng 6-6:30. with driver and all.
we left at around 8. yipeeyahoowahooey :)
our short time together was too confusing for me to talk about. as usual.
haha. it was fun. as usual.
i couldn't help asking about #1 though. zip it sandy.
i miss you. so sad i lost gr6 :(
we parted ways when i miraculously got a cab at makati ave. at 9pm. wow.
the short cab ride was the highlight of my day. i think.

"bat di mo sinama yung boyfriend mo?
haha. manong hindi ah.
ano mo ba yun?
wala manong.
ano status niyo?
wala. haha. di ko alam.
nanliligaw ba? mahina noh?
haha.
ay mahina nga. dapat wag mo na paasahin.nako. ikaw rin. baka ma-develop yan.
haha. diba okay yun?
bat nga di mo sinama?
kasi manong. hindi pwede. blah blah blah. birthday ng duddy ko.
sigurado ka hindi kayo? kasi kinikilig kayo kanina eh.
hahahaha."

in the short 20 minute cab ride, we managed to talk about me,gr6,college,eurocarnival,Kris Aquino,my love life,my lolo,the army.
he even clapped his hands when he knew i was from up and he's from ateneo. haha.
we passed by a car that broke down. he said that if only he didn't have a passenger. he woul've helped.that man's one of those people i'll never forget. i can't express how thankful i am to God for meeting him. he so reminds me of the waiter from waiterrant. it's those short encounters that affect you in the most profound of ways :) i didn't get to say goodbye properly though. sayang. to the driver and gr6
i stayed at home or less than an hour.
i greeted papa. i ate dinner. i bonded with my family.
i had this warm cozy feeling in my heart. something i haven't felt in a long time. told you the driver had a profound effect on me :)
i got some clothes. because some of the clothes i brought to the dorm don't fit me anymore. and i have to prep for my friday the 13th escapade with kaye tomorrow. haha.
i weighed myself.
I GAINED 4 POUNDS
i am happy : )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA :)

I LOVE YOU <3

crush list

2006-01-06T22:40:00.000+07:00

inspired by im-ing with breechy. haha :)
here goes...

big fisher. last year ko pa siya crush. haha. "bata" pa siya. only my ateneo friends know.

tribal. i first laid eyes on him before our turn during engg week's smoker's night. may tribal logo siya sa likod nun. and it seems, mahilig talaga siya sa tribal. halata na.

tic-tac-toe. last year pa rin siya. sa kanya ako nagka-stupid moment. matigas na tiyan is a good thing. naku.

kuya. nakakamiss yung dati. nandiyan siya parati pag di ako makatulog. one text away lang. pag malungkot ako malungot din daw siya. hindi siya matutulog hangga't mapangiti niya ko. gaga kasi ako kasi pinafeel ko sa kanya na hindi na siya yung favorite kong kuya. mahal ko toh.

X. ex ng friend ko. alam ko masama at pagiging hypocrite. pero ito na siguro yung pinaka-joke sa lahat. promise.

enzo. crush din siya ng pinsan ko. nerdy. bs physics sa up. smoldering eyes. mala enrique iglesias ang dating. haha. nakita ko lang siya nung isan araw sa cantina.

LUIS MEDINA. ayan. bow down. malupit daw siya. yeah boi.

dami noh??
yung 5 friends ko. 2 yung watching-from-a-distance. which is sooo good. kasi mas nakakakilig pag may mystery. haha. oo ka nalang. if you know the 2, don't introduce me to them please.
well.i'm free to have as many crushes as i want since wala na naman kami ni 29.
sabi ko nga. happy new year. year of the new :)

hmm. siguro yung "pinaka". si #1 na. kaya ko nga siguro linagay sa 1 diba?
medyo badtrip nga lang ako sa kanya ngayon kasi tinulugan niya ko. haha.
i'll see 'em soon. very soon :)

bored,with friends and have money to spare?

2006-01-03T22:30:00.000+07:00

great :)
go to town.
not out-of-town. just town.
but it might as well have been out-of-town
sa haba ba naman ng biyahe eh.
saya. spontaneity at its best.
minalas ako nung papunta.haha.
busog naman ako nung pauwi.
lets do it again ha?
;p

New Year's Resolution/s

2006-01-01T00:00:00.000+07:00

1. Pumasok :)
2. ~~magka-bagong crush~~ ;)

2005 in summary :)

2005-12-31T23:59:00.000+07:00

since i only started last june, i copied the first and last lines of every month:)

it's getting worse.
pakasaya lang kayo ha.
sandy,miggy,michael and jai decide to eat dinner at Katips.
i see everything as an illusion.
i made you smile.
i don't want this entry to be a bad reminder.
i'm pathetic.
could someone please make me a layout?
my head's aching from all the idleness.
Good night dear sweet novembers.
geog 1 ko today.
i think i need not post about last night.

To: c,k,i,a,j,g,m,j,g,a,e,s,p

2005-12-27T15:49:00.000+07:00

i think i need not post about last night. so what's this?
everyone posted stuff about it na. haha.
takes the mystery away.

sorry.
thank you.
let's do it again.
:)

el cielo esta cayendo!

2005-12-25T00:00:00.000+07:00

the eve was crap in the crappiest sense.
imagine a to-the-death match between you and your brother.
champagne went flying over the table.
he snapped.
monster.
we are the Munsters.
crap.
and a nun visited us Christmas day.
well. atleast rocky came over.
and Chicken Little makes it all better.

HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE :)

or better yet, in joey's realistic words

HAVE A NOT SO MERRY CHRISTMAS ;)

a friendster rant.

2005-12-24T23:59:00.000+07:00

there are anti-friendster people on friendster. diddya know that?
there are those self-righteous non-conformists who say that friendster is for losers, yet have their own accounts.

Friendster is for the friendless, i agree, most of the time. I'm talking about those people who'll add up anyone, any group,any place,anything. It's pathetic to have forty plus accounts of people you don't know (prolly dominated by perverts and d.o.m.s) then create exclusive accounts that don't turn out to be so exclusive. i'm not mad, ok? :)

i'm ranting about friendster cause reading ross' article on conforming non-conformists reminded me of it.

i have multiple accounts. i admit. three's enough for me. one for new friends, mostly college people. one for old friends, mostly highschool people from sanago. and one for older friends,prolly from my childhood and/or maksci. oh. and i do include enemies, i'm just not making an account especially for them, prissy exes ni rocky. haha :)
i don't mean to be hypocritical or defensive. i'm being unbiased.

i salute those who have thousands of friends but don't turn their testimonials area into message boards. there are message boards for that. forkin FRONTIN bull crap.

i irk that some people are sooo self righteous to say that multiple accounts are a waste of web space. puhlease. it's those unused friendless accounts that are a waste of web space.
but lets not generalize, shall we? i'd consider those filled with sparkling piczo words, like sexy, gorgeous, cute, as a waste. i'd prolly include those that are over flowing with embeded videos, and .mp3s, in the waste bin, cause they're too sloooow. basically, if it's too boring or too much of a hassle to open, it's a waste.

let me insert this line. you can't face the problem if the problem is your face. if that's the case, it's also a waste. i'm a fan of the okrayables and the 5 volumes of friendster atrocities. sorry. i totally agree, but let's not wipe them out just yet. they're super funny :)
but hear this. don't mistake my flamboyance for apathy. i firmly believe that
no amount of plastic surgery can cure hideousness. only humility can do that.

moving on.speaking of web space. i'm taking geog this sem and cyber space is recognized as part of it. really. so i'm kinda glad that i've occupied quiet a few gigabytes, ironic as that may sound, of it.

i have life out of cyber space. don't worry. i have happy horse. jiyeah ;)

i heard it. did you?

2005-12-24T00:32:00.000+07:00

i heard it again.
one-of-the-boys
was that a compliment?
no matter.
i'm taking it as one :)

i heard it again.
where's your boyfriend?
wish i knew. kasama ko kanikanina lang.
open relationship.
maybe i should just record it and play it over and over again :)

i heard it again.
what's the point?
does there have to be one?
if you insist.
i love him. he loves me. we just want to be :) ~~oh really?~~ <-- shut up!

i heard it again.
anything is possible.
not for me.
it's all just probable.
and more often than not, the odds are against me :) why are you still smiling?

i heard it again.
you're flat.
like i don't face the mirror everyday
and tell that to myself
and laugh :)

i heard it again.
perv magnet
please stop it.
what do i have to do?
look uglier? cries :) and yet you still manage to smile.

i heard it again.
party girl
yeah. and all of the above.
why'd you still want MY life?
you're not getting it. it's mine :)

i heard it again.
life is a roller coaster.
i've been riding it so many times. not that i've ever gotten off and died
i feel like hurling now.
but not at you. i promise :)

i heard it again.
i love you.
aww.
i know.
i love you too :)

i lost my baby

2005-12-18T02:22:00.000+07:00

it's not the same anymore.
it'll never be the same.
i've grown too attatched to it.
i wanna cry
but nothing comes out.
i want to bleed
but it's not worth it.
instead, i smile.
smile smile smile
just like before
but it's not the same anymore.
i look twice as stupid.
i'll grow twice as bored.
it meant so much to me.
i hearted so many with it.
i laughed,teared,fell with it.
i abused it
and it just took and took and took.
i feel so empty without it.
it's like i lost an arm.
i wanna cry.
it hurts.
then i find myself indifferent.
like it didn't and wouldn't burden anyone.
i'm so friggin extremes.
empathic.
apathetic.
other people look more depressed about it than i do.
i'd jump and smile and joke about it.
i'd laugh and talk and scream about it.
unbelievable
i'm one of the most heartless people sometimes.
yet
i feel happy
for i sprayed and was sprayed wildly,
i slept so soundly
and my heart loved warmly.
and i found myself smiling again
deep inside just like the last time.

good bye dear phone. rocky lost his phone too. we're soo meant to be. haha :)
i will never lose hope
just like i always do.

i lost my baby.
can i have you?
will you now hug me?

hello new old phone.
hello once again once again.

b-e-autiful :)

2005-12-16T00:02:00.000+07:00

it's an interspecie love story. ick. haha.
icy, ceej, kaye and i watched kingkong at gateway before going to the lantern parade.
i say interspecie wrestling should be an olympic sport. haha. super funny.
and the capt. gustav is soo hott :)
did i just say hott??
that means.

I'M BAACK!

yep. i'm back. the ehemehem sandy is back. happy as can be.
alive and kicking and kicking and kicking and kicking... (joke ni jake ;p)

since absinth tayo this christmas vacation, dalawang magkasunod na post para sa inyo.
haha. i'll miss the goodah times. i'll miss you all :)

siiiiilent niiiiiight hooooly niiiiight - be boys choir

yeah. yeah. masyado na kong nalululon sa drogang toh. i know. haha. droga eh noh? puff puff.
feeler na ba? honestly?
Beta Epsilon Fireworks Display.
i got a stiff neck from the 30 minutes of it.
nambabae nanaman lahat. haha. basta masaya kayo. cadillac tayo ;p
Beta Epsilon Christmas Party.
good food. good company. good entertainment. haha. pano ba ko napadpad dito?
the girls were so nice and friendly. sanay nanaman ang lahat sa aking flamboyant nature.
di na nakapagtataka na nakakausap ko agad sila. right? :)
probinsyana, di ka pa nakakapunta dito noh? haha. boo you.
since uber feeler mode ako. todo ko na.

"betanettes sa harap ng picture!"
"sinong boy mo here?wala ah.friend lang.ah "friend".haha...lahat kami boys niya..."

see? i'm back. in uber feeler mode. proud of it.

salamat sa mga naghahatid sakin pauwi.
salamat sa mga nagpapatext at nagpapatawag.
salamat sa mga namimigay at nanlilibre :)

inspite of all the barahan and kalibugan
i laff you all <3

Maskipaps + -

2005-12-14T07:00:00.000+07:00

hinarass ng lesbian stripper
nanuod ng nakakapagpatindigbalahibong hubad na fashion/faction show
nalaglag ang lampang mapagpanggap na macho
pinakilala ang crush ko sa magagandang babae
naligo sa ulan para sa panunuod ng mga modelo
naligo sa ulan para sa mahal kong mga kuya
napuno ng putik sa paa
gininaw at niyakap
gininaw sa pagkaarbor ng astig na jacket
naglaro ng walkie talkie
nakipaggaguhan sa walkie talkie
nagkaroon ng alitan dahil sa gaguhan
iniwan sa ere ang walang kwentang tupperware
naglaro ng hide-and-seek
nakipaggarapalan sa walang kwentang tupperware
pinabayaan itsismis ng walang kwentang tupperware
humithit ng sandamukal na yosi
nagpakipot sa alak
uminom ng absinthe nang walang laman ang tiyan
kumanta ng walang katuturan
kumanta hanggang sa wala nang maibubuga
pare kung umasta
pinanatiling may sablay ang pagkasumbrerong itsura
binayaran ang utang na tambay
nangolekta ng souvenirs
natulog ng nakaupo sa kahoy na sofa
natulog ng nakahiga sa kahoy na sofa
nag-share ng talent
hindi pumayag na sumayaw
hindi natulog
7am na kakauwi lang
naghintay nang may ngiti sa bibig at kumukulong tiyan
naglantad ng kwentong-buhay
nanlambing
nambola
tumakbo
bonding
kwentuhan
halkhakan
ngitian
tunay na pagkakaibigan

I HAD A GREAT TIME :)

I HEART AND THANK YOU ALL <3

kaye.icy.ange.ceej.pau.bern.pisay.carlo.gap.chet.alfred.lito.romel.ren.
james.marlon.mikey.rachelle.jake.marco.ross.kambal.julius.anna.lhaydi.
chinkee.nikki.be.ls.carmen.karen.pau.viv.va.jaspie.jake.ponks.migo.carlo.jol.
rielle.carlos.kristia.diane.maan.diuvs.jano.rocky.

sa wala jan. miss ka na ni sandy :)

carless oval

2005-12-12T21:47:00.000+07:00

wow.
napatulala nalang talaga ako.
ang sarap pala sa up pag wala yung mga ikot at toki.
naglakad kami sa gitna ng daanan.
saya.
may tiangge pa.
nakahanap pa ko ng chocolate yoshi.
wow.
haha.
na-sprayan ko si kaye and icy ng fake pink snow kanina.
haha.
ang lala.
sorry guys.
one more day.
yes!
kaso gaga ako.
di nanaman nakapasok.
bat di niyo ko gisingin Lord?
yes.
sabaw mode ako.
sa friday na yung grand inuman.
gusto ko magsaya nang magsaya.
ay kay guwapo gyud nimo.
kaso drained na ang akong libido.
malibog ako.
gago bisaya yan.
meaning nalilito ako.

hug nalang.
masaya na ko.
solve na.

wednesday's supposed visitors: meia,rocky,jano
see you!

oblation run na sa thursday.
sana makita ko sila.
pati sa saturday.
break naman nun eh :)

empty libido syndrome

2005-12-10T10:40:00.000+07:00

OLE OLE OLE OLE! CAMPEONES CAMPEONES!

sandycarlo,darylsakitulo,ponksmigo,sandyjake,sandybasag,jackoahole,yellowsubmarine,jakebengadaryl

just got back from the yellow submarine yellow submarine yellow submarine.

viv and i have come to these conclusions regarding my asexual period.
it's either "ang bagal mo." is now my line, because most of them are just too slow,torpe or immature.
or
it's because i hang out with enzo, another asexual being, and/or the guys too much, that i don't find them hott anymore.

it's come to the point that my "kilig ako." is fake.
i've lost my remaining penchant that even remotely resembles good taste.
worst of all, i have no regrets regarding "super hott" jake.

this is so sad.
what the f*ck is wrong with me?

haaay.will go with karen,carmen,pau and viv na muna.

i love you viv!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

you're not the backbone of mfy. period.

2005-12-08T03:34:00.000+07:00

my system's in a confused state right now.
i need to rest because it's 6am. normal people are either still sleeping or waking up already.
yes. no one ever said i was normal.

why am i still up?
i'm nocturnal. that's one.
it's smoker's night later. i might have nightmares. that's two.
my head's full of bullshit. that's three. and that's just plain disgusting.

define bullshit.
if i could, this would be it.

Oi, may nabalitaan ako syo
ah.. Tsktsk! Bsta may smthng dw na nakalagay sa
frndstr m. Abt sa hndi kna virgin.. Kumakalat ata -KAT
Y.

[copied the exact message from my phone. word per word. dot per dot. in 1:1 correspondence]

now that is, was, and forever will be bullshit.
BULL-SHIT.

why?
the person. that's one.
our supposed founder who, for sooo many months, only made paramdam when she needed some cash or a ride. the person who asked my boyfriend out soo many times, without my permission. the person who told another person that she loved and wanted her; then hid from the girl's barkada, who hunted her down.the person who would just text you out-of-the-blue when she hears rumors about you from another person just like her. the person who, despite all the bullshit she's done, even has the nerve to say...

Ah.. Kc umabot k lilane un..
So nung katxt ko c lilane,
binalita niya sakin. Pag
sabihan dw kta. Newaiz,
musta? San b ung party ni
viv n wat tym? Chka anu
su2ot?

oh my gawd! of all the people? it's the one i was looking for for jo-e! wag nalang!
of all the people? they have the nerve to say pagsabihan dw kta?
of all the people? these dirty school-less self-righteous bisexual rumourmongers have the nerve na pagsabihan ako?

KADIRI!

lahat lahat. yung sinabi,yung nagsabi,yung nagsabi sa nagsabi,yung naisip sabihin, at, pinaka-malupit, yung naisip! lahat!

w.a.f! eh ni hindi mo nga ko pinagsabihan eh! which depletes the purpose of you texting me in the first place! kasalanan ko pa ba kung tatangtanga kayong magbasa? if you have nothing good to say, go away! maghanap ka muna ng school at tumigil sa paghahabol sa mga babae! huwag mong hintayin na pagsabihan ka naming LAHAT, because we agree upon this.

so why am i posting all this so blatantly?
for the very same reason na nilaglag kita.

it's
BULL-SHIT.

and you were the ones who assumed i was this blatant.

2005-12-07T01:58:00.000+07:00

guwapo noh?

breechy as mr. cupido

haha

salamat (:

survey lang. ilaglag na ang sarili. hi mama ; )

2005-12-07T00:34:00.000+07:00

BASAG o_O ilang basag pics...apir!

I. Beer
1.do you drink?~ ugh. oo naman.
2.when was the last tym u drank?~ hmm.kanikanina lang.
3.umiinom ka ba ng gin?~ di ko kaya pure. di ako tigas eh.
4.have you drank vodka?~ yerp. delicious.
5.cnong nagturo syo uminom?~ i was born that way. pwede ring tatay ko.
6.nalasing ka na ba?~ oo. tao lang. besides, isn't that the point of drinking? (:
7.anong favorite song mo pag nag-iinom ka?~ crush-mandy moore. malandi ako eh. haha.
8.nagsuka ka na ba sa inuman?~ i'm infamous for it. haha.
9.tamang age para pwde nang uminom?~ 7 sa enzoland. yey!
10.fave drink mo?~ raspberry vodka cruiser. bano ako. i'm just a cruiser.
11.chaser ng empi?~ coke. simple. yummy.
12.umuwi ka na bang gumagapang dahil sa kalasingan?~ di lang. dead weight pa. binuhat ng 2 ma-ma O_o
13.sino ang madalas naghahatid sayo pag lasing ka na?~ wala. di ako umuuwi. haha. pwede ring si kash.
14.ano yung craziest thing na ginawa mo nung lasing ka?~ ay. shite. iba na toh. SECRET. or pwede ring patrick cuison. alam niyo na yun.
15.nkakailang bote ka ng beer?~ strong ice, di ko alam. redhorse, 5 lang.
16.san mig light strong ice o red horse?~ wow. parang kakasagot ko lang. red horse forever.
17.hard drinks o beer lang?~ hard kahit hindi ako tigas. sosyal ako eh. haha.
18.umminom ka ba sa bar?~ oo nalang.
19.mahal noh?~ oo! apir tayo jan! todo rip-off!
20.sa pulutan.. sisig o bopis?~ sisig. yummy. droole O_o
21.mani o chicha?~ chichuh w/ suka. lalo kang susuka.
22.pag umiinom ka ng beer.. sa bote o sa baso?~ bote. hindi daw feminine. paki ko? peace tayo (: 23.nalabasan ka na ba ng alak sa ilong?~ aray. di pa. try ko ha.
24.naaksidente ka na ba dahil sa kalasingan?~ define aksidente. yun nalang. aray.
25.nasabi mo na ba sa sarili mo na hindi ka na iinom?~ oo naman. lalo na pag kaka suka lang.

II.Yoshi
1.do you smoke?~ what? ah..oo.
2.when was the last tym u smoked?~ kanikanina lang. yosi break.
3.nakailang stick ka nun?~ di ako chain smoker. 5 ayos na.
4.anung brand ng yosi mo?~ dati gudang menthol. kaso may asbestos daw. ack. kaya capri muna ako ngayon.
5.Cnong nagturo syo mag-yosi?~ ay. laglagan na ba toh? pwede tatay ko nalang din.
6.average stick in a day?~ 5 nga.
7.menthol? lights? red?~ baog na kungh baog ah. menthol. presko eh.
8.wet smoker ka ba?~ oo. heehee. sanay pero wet. galing ko talaga.
9.legal ka ba sa bahay?~ HINDI
10.tamang age para pwde nang mag-yosi?~ 13. basta -teen na. importante ang baga.
11.what age ka nag-start mag-yosi?~ what do you mean nag-start? binigyan ako nung driver nung 5 ako. tuloytuloy na ko since 15. (pwede pakiintindi yung sagot ha.)
12.bakit ka nag-yosi nun?~ masaya ako na depressed.
13.kaya mo ba na walang yosi sa inuman?~ hindi. bakit ba talaga?
14.e sa banyo?~ oo naman. di talaga ako nagyoyosi sa banyo.
15.e sa coffee shop?~ hmm. ngayon medyo hindi na. lecheng starbucks yan. g4.
16.san ang bilihan mo ng yosi?~ sa ilalim ng overpass. sa tapat ng up lib.
17.mahal ba?~ sulit.
18.nakakaubos ka ba ng 1 pack sa isang araw?~ ako lang mag-isa? hindi ah! hihi.
19.lagi ka bang may stock ng yosi sa bahay?~ nakakabaliw. i know. pero hindi.
20.kaya mo bang itigil ang pag-yosi?~ oo. will power! "i can,but i won't." haha. wtf?!
21.nagsisisi ka ba na nagstart ka pa mag-yosi?~ hindi pa sa ngayon. wag naman sana. huhuhu :'(

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2005-12-06T20:19:00.000+07:00

so late na daw siya umuuwi ngayon kasi

"kasama ko pa si jp. nagsmoke lang kami..."

ugh.
wow.
kaya pala marami ka nanamang tricks.

i'm glad. atleast ngayon, hindi mo na ko 'mahihipokrito'.
i just don't get it if you're going up or down.
naguguluhan ako sa mga goal mo sa buhay.
hahaha. nagsalita.
gaya gaya. idol mo talaga ako.

miss na kita. see you on thursday, you weirdoo (:

everyone!
sapakin niyo nga ko. gisingin at papasukin.
"hoy bruha pumasok ka nga!"

nako ah. magtext ka. sapakan na toh.

JO-E NAKAKABADTRIP KA TALAGA!

2005-12-04T23:40:00.000+07:00

i uploaded some pics from toni's debut, etc.
i'm still waaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiting for them.tagal. 0_O

rocky's been so useless these past few days.
not naman useless, he's just not there.
yan tuloy, i still haven't watched chicken little.
he better come on thursday or else,
bugbugan na toh! wala na ngang pasok eh!

so someone finally asks me to watch it, then 10 minutes later, it's goodbye.
BADTRIP! galit ako. swear. galit talaga.
i can't stand not talking to a person when i'm mad at them. (or happy with,alternatively)
i don't like leaving things hanging.
it's not officially goodbye, i know, but still!
ano namang klase yun diba?

"diba bula ako? [sabi mo]"
"so mawawala ka nalang bigla?"
"parang ganun na nga. you'll see."

wtf???
i'm mad, but at the same time, hurt.
as in affected ako. why???
sino ba naman tong taong toh???
uhhh...tao lang naman na you never thought you'd see again, but serendipitously did!
i'm hurt in the way that you'd want to shed a little tear.
i'm hurt because of that ^ bubble thing, not because of what was shared.
tuwang tuwa nga ko nung finally nasabi mo eh! patagotago pa kasi! ayos lang naman!

omg!!! i'm feeling something! i'm hurt! shite!
i'm kinda happy narin pala.
it's been so long since i've sincerely felt something, anything.
i admit, rocky has made me so numb, that
this wonderfully hurtful and deep feeling feels like a blessing.

i discovered just now that i have a stalker. hahahaha. joke lang mico (:

naman joe! di na ko sanay nang di ka nakakausap/kasama. shit ka naman eh. ayoko nga ng nagiging attatched/dependent in any way. too late. shit talaga. brought the physics book pa! shit ka tinapay! wag mo ko tirahin. manghahamon ng bullsession tapos magpapakamanok.bwiset! *really pissed*

"hello silence" wave laugh - prof. acuna

2005-12-02T18:25:00.000+07:00

geog 1 ko today.our task was to map the acad oval.saya noh?not!
my geog 1's 4-5:30. so wala nang araw. di na mainit. which is good naman.
but, as in wala na ngang araw. madilim na.
our group of seven was split into two.
the first group mapped the vendors/stalls in the inner acad oval.
the second group mapped the buildings in the outer acad oval.
i was part of the second group.
imagine that. umabot pa kami dun sa may damuhan na.
exercise yun! but i don't need it. naman. wala nang matitira sakin.
i was with carlo and jade by the way.
it was fun, but tiring (:
sabi ko nga. no need for jeepneys from now on. haha.
yeah. like that's gonna happen. maarte daw ako eh. haha. kayo kaya tumawid ng bakod. ako kaya ko (:

pabalik sa dorm with my geog buddy (who's a new inebriation mate btw)
$^#$@&**^$%#&^#$ argh! *confusingly inis mode*
i saw jo-e. why the heck was i in that mode??
period comin up?? haaayy. ayun. i saw jo-e in front of cantina. hindi nanaman uuwi yun. saya (:

prof. acuna really reminds me of papa.
he talks like him and even looks like him.
i can't help but listen to his "lectures".
but, Lord please, don't make him teach sa diliman. of all the places. please.
anyway, today's discussion was fun. indirectly titled-"the makings of an insane isko"
derived from something written by randy david. nakakahiya na nakakatawa. lolo ko pa naman yun (:

2005-12-02T00:00:00.000+07:00

:) HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAAN!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEY! (:

sweet november

2005-11-30T23:00:00.000+07:00

it starred charlize theron and keanu reeves.
i've watched it dozens of times, partly because it's my "29" movie.
i haven't seen it recently. that's not why i'm blabbing about it.

it just seems that november loves me.

it's the only month that dared to. too bad it ends today.

it gave me three. imagine that.
i wouldn't exactly call it being blessed, for the first was an unfortunate icky disaster.
thinking about it still gives me goosebumps. swear. sometimes, it even makes me puke.

i have 29. what more could i ask for?

nothing more. but november loves me and it keeps on giving.
it loves me every single year. i should atleast love it back, right?

what a predicament ey? i bet some of you want to choke me right now.

i did watch a movie today. Prime starring Uma Thurman, Meryl Streep and Bryan Greenberg.
it was uber funny yet heart-felt. i felt warm inside. yuckos to dramatizing. haha.
but i got a bit cold outside though.
i was never a fan of pokemon, but wasn't there one named slowpoke?

nakakatakot nga talaga akong maging girlfriend.

hurrah to ORs! and to the endless occurances that prove that my eyes aren't shallow.

*hugs&kisses*

Good night dear sweet novembers.

let's party cause it's a tuesday. tsk.

2005-11-29T23:00:00.000+07:00

"inebriation at 12 noon last tuesday, right after my math class, while singing "crush" by mandy moore on the karaoke machine."

now that's a tippler's type of sentence, wouldn't you say?

"birit paul birit!"

i have to say, jo-e's turning out quiet nicely. *laughs*
but i actually expected him to be this/that way after six years of absolutely no contact whatsoever.
i did tell about rocky today.
duh?? it's lovely 29! monthsary :p

after ardz, we went to the jma orsem at balay kalinaw.
i'm really comfortable with them. nevermind that they're ultra "coño" in other people's eyes, i love 'em! and the way those "other people" think is just so typical for *ehemprobinsyanasehem*
three letters; S P R , the hottest! *laughs*

we went to shade right after the orsem for further inebriation (:
maca's aw-sum and don walked me home at 10:59. sakto!

broken nose

2005-11-28T13:38:00.000+07:00

fine.
it's more like bruised than broken.
it still hurts like shit.
die bitch die.